I can relate to every word written here by you! I also lost my father, but I also saw my mother left alone (my father had been her partner for more than 50 years) and see her saying in front of his coffin: “You left me alone”, even if she could say: “Mom I am here with you”, my father's company was not only his partner, my father was his friend, his soul mate.
In the end, people's sadnesses are alike and sensitive people, like you and me, cannot avoid the bird of sadness to visit us always, what we should not allow is that it nests in us. Greetings
We would have been married 50 years this past December, a lifetime. Your Mom words "You left me alone” is what I often still say!
Initially the pain is so overwhelming, that one is enveloped in it.Exactly @nancybriti1, you understand!