Wow this hit me to the core.
I have to ask what part that hit in your core, if you don't mind sharing.
Thank you @moon-city! He was very gifted and he inspired me that way. He's never done art. Music was his thing. He was most disappointed that I chose to pursue art and not music. Eventually, he accepted that. Most definitely, he and I are the same, we both loved to disappear into creativity, or working with our hands, even the most mundane of physical labour. I'm very grateful to share this with him and carry on after he's gone, in the some of the same ways he did when he was alive.
Most importantly, he lives on inside. All I have to do is reach in and he's there. I just miss the hugs and laughs most of all.
This entire part really hit me. It is quite appalling of the medical team that was involved in this whole process to have put your Dad through this process.
I am glad that he accepted your choices. You are doing pretty well.
It is appalling. This sort of medical mistreatment is far more common that most people are aware of. It impacted my entire family in such a way that it rippled out into a series of terrible events in addition to what my father was put through. One of the hardest for me was my mother blaming herself for years. I've never had much faith in the medical system. Once I went over all the medical documents, and investigated the drugs he was given (some of which they forced him to take against his will), my whole perception of medical care in this country changed permanently.
I never gave him a choice, although I felt sad that I didn't have the same motivation to pursue music as I did art. I've only dabbled in music a bit. I'm content with where I am, so that's what matters.
Nine I am extremely so ti hear about the ripple effects the medical mistreatment caused. Oh my goodness I feel awful that your mom blamed herself for years. I know a family friend who experienced a medical mishap and it was the same case...the mom blamed herself.
This is appalling on too many levels. I can definitely understand why your perspective about the medical world has changed. It failed on many levels. I am proud of you to continue to keep pushing yourself in several creative endeavors.
Yes, none of it was fun. It was a very good learning experience though. I am acutely aware of what many go through now, aside from my own experience. Everything, day to day, offers many learning opportunities, so that is what I focus on.
Definitely pushing myself creatively 🤣, thank you.