Hey all,
I know it's been a minute since my last post. While there's not one single big event that kept me away, many little bits of situations kept me busy while wearing away at my mental health more than I realized over the months, as I stepped away from so. many. things.
Hindsight, ammirite? 😜
I plan to go into more detail in the coming days/weeks/months, but for now the tl;dr is -
hubby's shoulder surgery was more intense than expected, and he's still not back to work, eight months after his original injury
the youngest had a crazy work schedule and for a myriad of reasons, I was her primary transportation
I was also the only one, for months, doing all the shopping, laundry (at a laundromat), errands, and chauffeuring to various appointments
as an example, the husband and the eldest (neck issues) both had physical therapy a few times per week each for about three months
through all this my anxiety (which kindly attached to driving back when I was going through a major bout of postpartum depression a couple decades ago & never fully let go) was at a stupidly high level, but I didn't have the time (or mental capacity, because melty brain) to deal with it
We've now had an extra bit of a shakeup (alluded to in the thumbnail and explained more below), and in an effort to help us out, a few days ago my sister-in-law invited us to her place (about a half hour away) for dinner to decompress and brainstorm. She and I ended up having an intense-yet-positive discussion, where she pointed out how "broken" I've become since the beginning of the year. For example, I'm not chatting pretty much at all with anyone either in person or on any of my socials - in fact, the only people I regularly talk to/message live in this house. I've had maybe a handful to my mother and a few assorted others (like our landlord), but I basically have stopped talking to everyone, because I haven't had the brain bandwidth to even realize how much I missed having non-family people in my life. And that's just for starters. 😆
By the time we were done, I realized how much Hive had become my happy place over the past six (almost seven!) years, and that one of the first things I needed to do was to reconnect with everyone here. I know I have a gazillion Discord messages to reply to, and I plan to start working my way through once things around here have settled a bit. Though at the moment, this is essentially a live look at my current state...
Now to explain the aforementioned shakeup that is now pushing everyone in our household (three adult children, husband, and myself) into changing things up. Our amazing landlady, who has been incredible to us for the nearly twelve years we've lived here, is selling this property (our place, lovingly referred to as the "Barn in the back" is in my blog thumbnail pic).
At first, we were told that as dependable renters in an eclectic space (technically a one bedroom for the five of us), we'd likely be able to stay, although the new owners would probably raise our rent.
A week ago, our landlady came over with a letter stating we needed to leave, and gave us 30 days to vacate the place.
I will say though, this is not a decision she made lightly, and she didn't expect when she started this process that it would impact us in this way or this quickly. Knowing what she's going through (might be a story for another day), I'm not at all mad at her, just frustrated with the whole situation.
To give some perspective on our predicament, the possibility of finding a rental for five of us here in the Seacoast NH area (let alone moving twelve years of stuff), at the time returning college students are also looking, for an amount we could afford, that is also okay with a dog & two cats, is akin to flipping a coin a hundred times in a row and getting heads each time.
Though I'm trying not to get my hopes up, we do have a lead we might be able to check out tomorrow. However, it means a dramatic reworking of our household (which is actually already underway - another story for another day).
It also means I might need to bite the proverbial bullet and power down some of my Hive, even though my initial reaction to my husband's gentle suggestion was essentially...
Since I've actually never sold any Hive/HBD, I'm not even sure where to start. I'm hoping to have a little time early next week to sit down and search for exchanges that are available in the US. If anyone here in the States has any suggestions, I'd wicked appreciate hearing them. I still plan to stall as long as possible, but it's more than likely I'll at least have to cash out my HBD. However, if all goes well, I'll soon have time (and plenty of blog material!) to start building it up again.
Speaking of having time, while it might go without saying, I still want to say it - one of the first things I'm going to do is get everything caught up with Power Up Day. I'm not sure if I'll start running it again, or maybe a pared down version of it, but I know there are still some prizes waiting to be awarded, so that's one of my top priorities.
In the meantime, my current state is pretty much this... 😊
Please feel free to regale me in the comments with any bits of Hive news, gossip, and such that I've missed in the past five or so months, along with your own current news & adventures (as well as how you're coping with the current level of fuckery going on all over the world), and I hope to catch up with everyone very soon! 😁
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You can thank your friend @livinguktaiwan for dropping me the post! My dear, I've been bugging her for months about you. Nice that you're back! :D
Hey @traciyork,
I'm so glad to finally hear from you, even though the circumstances are tough. Life certainly has a way of throwing curveballs, and it sounds like you've been juggling quite a few. I know how mental bandwidth can be stretched thin with everything going on.
Take your time easing back into things here on Hive; Health and family are top priorities.
Wishing you strength and sending positive vibes your way! 🤗
I have been mostly absent for the last while. We shall have a proper catch up. As for powering down, I have had to, so here's help. I can talk you through it when you're ready...
I know the feeling about being absent,I notiecd it was last year I posted last, as I bad taken time away too. Things outside going on, dad in hospital for 4 months with endless stupid setbacks and now him home again, be it currently not having the strength to stand and having to be hoisted, its been, a journey to say the least.
So I totally gotcha on how the step away happens when so much goes on.
Going to keep fingers and toes crossed the house situ sorts itself out
Hi! Your proverbial online son (whatever that means) is also still here! Although barely hanging on. Haven't posted in more than a month and barely interacting at all. I'm just thankful for @worldmappin (hey! Pinmapple has been rebranded and under a new management.) for being the last remaining tether that kept me in this space.
I feel you! I'm also overwhelmed by everything that's happening in my life, but it's fine. Glad to see you back!
Hmm... You are really going through a difficult time. This may be a strange reaction, but you are already surrounded by problems, so your hive fams talking about all this further will not reduce the tension. Instead, I pray to God that everything in your life gets better soon. And yes, I am thankful to you that about 6 months ago you had delegated some HP to me to become the winner of HPUD and then maybe you forgot to take it back, but because of the confidence and hope that HP gave me in that initial period, I have been able to remain consistent here till now and knowingly or unknowingly you have played a big role in it. So A Very Big Thanks To You! 😊🙏
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Hello @traciyork , welcome 🥰
I missed you a lot, I must confess that I was worried about your absence and several times I entered your blog and x, to see if there were signs about you, I am very glad that you are back but.go slowly.
I'm sorry life has got a bit difficult, mental health is very important and it's good to know how you are feeling and how you need to improve, I feel you are on the right track.
About my life I tell you, I have been feeling very overwhelmed, every day more exhausted, taking care of my 93 year old grandmother for these 5 years already have me without energy, apart from that this year my two brothers have had to have surgery, one for an accident fractured, the other for two inglinal hernias, both I have had to take care of and run away.
I am the one who runs the errands and takes care of everyone, but I am already at my limit, I have also thought about retiring for a while from hive but I have the responsibility of the tattoo community and that has me more committed, plus it is the only income I have. 🥹🥲 Anyway, I know how you feel, take care of yourself.
I am happy to have you back. It was just yesterday I was just thinking why you are not around.
Welcome back! You definitely have my sympathy on the health issues, family chaos, and housing expenses fronts. You're not alone in any of those areas. And I get how such things can lead to unintended withdrawal from social life. Good on you for getting back into HIVE! Just don't neglect human interaction in person locally! Visit the library, join a game group, or something!
In all honesty, I've only been keeping a thread in on Hive myself, so I understand your absence. Good to see you still alive and kicking.
What a time to be having to find a new place to live with everything that's going on with your family's health! Recently one of my disabled clients had the same thing looming and I was so worried for her, because most of the rental viewings have huge queues around here, and I mean that in a literal sense. Thankfully, they got a new place fairly close by and very quickly because she had glowing references from the previous landlord and rental agencies. The new house has actually ended up suiting her even better, so I hope she gets to stay for a long time. I hope the cards fall right for you as well.
Welcome back Traci, we really missed you! We missed your posts on Power Up days, NaBloPoMo days, listening to your podcasts. It's sad that you had to Power Down, but we should all do the same when we are in a situation like this.
One piece of news I can give you about my life is that I am engaged Traci! Unfortunately, I also did some Power Downs during this process, but it was a small amount. I am in the process of saving again!
Mental heth is very important. You cannot properly work if you have issues about the latter. Good thing you're already here.
Hellooooo Traci!!! It's great to hear from you at last!! To say you've been missed is a little understatement
I'm sorry to hear so much has been going on at home, I figured your absence was family related and that when you're ready you'll be back.
As Kim has mentioned, Pinmapple is now rebranded as Worldmappin led by detlev. It got to a stage where a few of us felt burnt out and decided to call it a day and sunset Pinmapple. Then detlev stepped in and said he wanted to continue the project. So now I have more free time and less pressure to curate. I've also stopped my HPUD Guessing Contest for the same reason. The next HF is in Croatia in September, I should be going, it will be nice to see some old friends again.
Apart from that, not much else from my end. Hope you get a new place sorted out very soon, 30 days isn't a lot of notice for a family of five to move out of their 12 year home.
Take care and drop back again when you have time❤️
Hey! We kept the lights on for you while you were gone!
Another year of business and family adventure brings us here to summer with gardening and camping season.
So good to have you back and learn of those challenges only a strong person could go through triumphantly like you. Being the rock in the family can take its toll on you because you take it seriously. Caring for others can turn life from “I’ll just give it my best” to “other people depend upon me I can’t fail them” which is exponentially more difficult and noble.
Looking forward to your personality and energy here again!
Best wishes from Australia... it sounds like it has been quite an "eventful" time. Hope that writing about it has been therapeutic and helps get it out.
Great to see you again, when friends go quiet online one automatically realizes real life has taken hold. Hope you find a new place soon.
It is so good to hear from you Traci and my heart goes out to on the one month notice. During the pandemic when we were in full lockdown mode our landlady gave us a one month notice, which she then had to change to 3 months as it was lockdown. She said her daughter had nowhere to live and wanted to move in. Total nonsense and she knew I knew it. But she could not ask to leave to sell it without 6 months notice. So luckily we found where we are now in a much better location etc and surprise surprise what did she do ... put up for sale signs not long after we moved. I could not be bothered with taking her to court for illegally evicting us.
The positive is we found somewhere far better. So I wish you good luck and hope you find somewhere soon.
As for Hive, well I have seen heaps of people either stop or slow right down. I know my engagement has tanked and the only thing really keeping me semi-active is curating Silver Bloggers posts.
You are welcome. I think a lot of us are coming back to Hive.
I hope you find a better place.
The "fuckery" going on is truly worldwide. One day at a time now maybe one second at a time too.
Damn sounds like a lot is going on :/ Take your time to figure things out!
Moving is always something difficult but under those circumstances, damn. But you will make the best out of it!
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I hope you have found suitable accommodation and that the move goes well.
Take care <3
Had just been thinking about you since it's been a year since I got to give you a little hug last, and here we go with the once a year or thereabout posting. Keep keeping it together, darling. You are a wonderful you.
I wish with all my heart that you find a home soon. It's difficult in such a short period of time, but it takes that inner light we all have inside us that guides us: intuition.
Whatever decision you make will be the right one.
Kind regards from Havana. Everything will be fine, you will see.
Hello. I have come to check ever so often to see whether you had returned. I'm glad I checked today. WELCOME BACK! As I see from the numerous comments welcoming your return, you were missed! I'm happy to hear you have come through on the other side. Perhaps not 100% yet, but you made it.
It's only with a clear mind that you find a small amount of clarity in what direction you need to go. Sometimes, it's returning to something familiar; something pleasant; something worthwhile you enjoy to sustain you until pressures subside. I'm happy to hear it was Hive and the people you missed that brought you back.
In life, SNAFUs happen all the time that are beyond our control. If I need to power down for any reason, I won't hesitate. So don't think twice about it if it'll help a smoother transition into the next phase of your offline life.
I knew without saying you'd want to HPUD straightened out. That's who you are to set things right. Just try to ease back into daily blogging. The move will take a lot out of your energy and getting resettled.
Look forward to outing the plaigs who need a kick where the sun don't shine to do right on the platform! lolol.
Take care and hope the move isn't too hectic. Have a good weekend.
Hi, Traci. I am praying that everything would be alright. Wishing u the best.
Sending some positive energy your way, dear soul...
I hope that things improve tremendously over there for you from now on, I wish you the strength and courage to pull through all of these. Stay strong and all the best.
Welcome back, I missed this post 19 days ago and it was a surprised to see your latest one on my feed. Good to hear from you as I wondered where you went.
Traci, I'm so glad to see these recent updates (that I've totally missed). I wondered what had happened, but also know that sometimes we all need some time away and space because things happen in life.
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