Not often do I make the time to sit in stillness. The lights had gone out minutes earlier and I went to the balcony and sat on the decking, my back against the concertina doors.
Dusk had already set in and the cloudy air hang low, grey horizon all around. I breathed deeply and closed my eyes. I realised I was smiling and I let my thoughts drift. I thought of all the happenings of the day, the weather, the little accomplishments, the treasures found, the funny text messages that made me belly laugh, made me feel special.
The knot that had been sitting in my chest for what seems like forever started humming and then unfurled like a flower bud eagerly seeking the first rays of morning sunlight. It felt like liquid gold was emanating from it, flowing throughout my body. A warm feeling, loving, joyous. I broke out in goosebumps and then pins and needles. Fear and stress fell off me like chaff from harvested wheat. I felt whole and unrestrained.
I slowly opened my eyes and watched the sky. Bats swooping and dipping flew above and around me through the moisture laden air. I wondered what they must be feeling as they flew and chirruped to each other. What the condensation must feel like on their leather like wings.
The elongated swooshing sound from car tyres on the motorway not far beyond and the headlights that deepened the silhouettes of trees, pinpricks of light moving through the branches and leaves on the evergreens. The smell of honeysuckle and jasmine wafted across from the neighbours yard and elevated my senses with it's sweetness.
It was all a bit sublime. I thought of the various paths that led to this moment, that I could sit here in stillness and enjoy not having to be anywhere specific, not having to tick off a to-do list item, no rushing or deadlines to chase. Just a moment of being with myself. It was an unfamiliar feeling to realise I was enjoying my own company. There was no monologue running in my head, my inner critic was eerily silent; content even. It was a moment of universal flow that carried me to a new place deep within myself. I didn't hate what I felt, saw, was. I was just me and I kinda liked the me that I've become.
There has been a lot of bad that brought me to this place, but there's been a lot of good too. Perhaps not perfectly balanced, but today felt better. The balance will come, I just need to keep walking the path I'm on and pushing forward. One step at a time. Patiently yet boldly.
Remembering to make time to smell the flowers and blow dandelion wishes.
This was beautiful to read and I might say I felt a little bit of the rush you felt because your words carried so much power. Alone time is often the medicine we never know we until you sit in silence and feel your pores open up to goodness.
I love how you recounted this and shared with us; such beautiful words.
Meanwhile, it’s been ages. Hi 🤗 how have you been?
Cheers to always making time to smell the flowers and listen to the sound of silence.
Hello Sugar
Thanks so much for the kind words, I'm so glad that you got a bit of a thrill while reading it, it was a really ethereal moment and an overall good day. These memorable ones we need to kinda keep in my minds and hearts and remember them.
How have you been?
I so enjoy the journey your words take me on. The confirmation that things will be good, and the sweet adornment of those little blossoms add warmth and love. Not to mention the little people that is taking the time to smell them. A lesson best taught early.
Forward, always forward.
Hello Denise
How have you been?
Thanks for coming by and having a read, this was quite a surreal epiphany moment, it felt right to share it.
I actually thought that you might appreciate that we stopped to smell the roses and petunias, it takes just a second but can be so uplifting.
Have a beautiful, flower-filled midweek 🌹
I have been good - busy, but can't that be said for most everyone? Thanks for asking.
Your reads are always interesting and many times, have snippets that I tuck away and remember from time to time. I love that you take the time to stop and enjoy the moment. It is those moments strung together that make life so wonderful.
Enjoy the rest of your week!
Hi Denise
It's good to read that you are doing well. I always say that busy is better than bored.
I do the same with your writing 🙂. It is always a pleasure to read your posts and what you are feeling, very often feel similar things to you.
Have a good one
This is really beautiful. I can't just help but admire how you make me picture your piece.
Hello @uddydan
Thank you for your message. It makes me glad to know that it evoked something in you, it was just a moment but I think each of us can find these if we take ourselves out of the busy-ness and spend some time in serenity.
Have a great day.
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Much appreciated @thoughtfulposts
It's lovely to have the opportunity to include my tidbits in your community.
Your description of space is on point. It is some of the best I have seen on this platform. I was particularly gripped by this paragraph:
"The elongated swooshing sound from car tyres on the motorway not far beyond and the headlights that deepened the silhouettes of trees, pinpricks of light moving through the branches and leaves on the evergreens. The smell of honeysuckle and jasmine wafted across from the neighbours yard and elevated my senses with it's sweetness."
Interestingly, you were able to weave it back and fuse your external observations with your bodily and internal perceptions.
It is always good to get some alone time, after all, our time here is so short. You are the smart one. Continue to blow the dandelions and write words that flow. This was a soothing read.