Starting over is tiring, sometimes changes are scary, not knowing how it will go, thinking that something will go wrong or that we might regret it. But sometimes those beginnings require that process, that moment of abrupt, chaotic and exhausting changes so that later everything goes well.
And yes, exhausting, because we have to do many things and think about many more. That's how it is, I've been a few days without writing here, without posting anywhere, without turning on the computer, just focused on changing. In putting practically my whole life in pieces in cardboard boxes, and a packing tape, there go years of routine, of the same panoramic views and of a known and familiar environment.
Now nothing is known. Novelty can excite, but it can also make us nervous, there is much to do and organize. That's what all this is about, about changing your life, your routine, your environment and your home. It's not easy, it's not just boxes and belongings, procedures and cleaning, it's also feelings and memories. Emotions between calls and to-do lists.
There is so much to do, but now step by step, I think that adaptation also takes time. But despite everything that lies ahead, I feel the tranquility and silence, another energy, and kinder people. That has caught my attention. You notice a big difference when you leave the big city to move away just a few kilometers to an urban environment, but which still retains those village streets, where there are still people who smile at you and when you pass they tell you without knowing you: "anything that you need... welcome here."
Those sensations to enjoy under the same blue sky, which is always there, that is still familiar, that's why I also feel at home, in another place. And for good vibes, the sea that I can see in the distance when I explore the area heading to buy, to the supermarket. I am walking thinking about what products to buy seeing a distant blue stripe on the horizon, there is the sea. I have so much to explore...
I didn't take photos, always something to carry in my hands... just one moment, just one far away.
I want to do many things, go to many places, take many photos, enjoy every new place and every moment. But everything cannot be done at the same time, I realize that I have little things to do, things to fix, to buy, to install, and others that were left behind, still in the old home that also have to be resolved, for in order to be able to finish that stage of truth.
Life is like that, there are stages, changes, surprises... even if one day you don't believe it, suddenly you find yourself sitting in a place you would never have imagined. Who was going to tell me a couple of years ago that I would be here today? Out of my comfort zone, out of my usual place, out of my house, which is no longer my house. Because my house is now another.
I look at all the lists-to-do that I have made, everything that I want to clean, organize and place, I see rooms full of boxes, I can't find anything. I go from one place to another without remembering what I had to take or what to look for. There are moments of extreme tiredness, it's very hot and I just want to rest.
Calm. That is necessary, we have time to enjoy the process instead of suffering it. That is what I want. So although there is still a lot to do, I am going to take a break, to enjoy the landscape and therefore, the beach. That sea that gives me life, that comforts me by making me feel calm and at home. In the end there or here now, I'm always at home breathing that air and looking at the horizon. New horizons, being the same blue sea. So close and so eager to return.
Soon more things, more sensations, because surely there is much more...
Thanks for reading! Have a surprising day.
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The only steady thing in life is change. ThNk you for this beautiful text, enjoyed it very much.
Thanks to you for reading and commenting, I really appreciate your words. And you are right, living means changes and changes, all is a process, let's enjoy it. Happy day!
I am glad that you have positive thoughts and impressions and I hope that the move was not too stressful. I wish you good luck at your new home. 🤗
Thanks dear friend. Well the move was stressful, yes, jajaja, many things, many hours, many nerves... I was exhausted at the end of the day. I later I just saw huge mountains of boxes, all was a disaster around (i'm very organized so it was hard to see all that jaja). But every day all look better although some changes are needed, many things to arrange too... Anyway, after reflecting I could write my thoughts and I kept the positive part, the important one. A new experience for me too. Happy week Jelena! 🤗🤗