Hello, hello dear community, today I find myself with an open mind, free to tell these little things that affect us mothers in some way but that, lest they say that we are bad, we simply keep quiet and keep in the bottom of our hearts.
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JUSTAMENTE Hoy vivo una de las etapas mas duras de esa separacion y me encuentro en esa disyutiva, Camilo ya crece y comienza a existir otras necesidades, y yo ultimamente tambien me he sentido mal, pues ni ganas casi de peinarme me dan, jajaja... Si estoy en modo pensamiento activo. ¿Que que quiere decir eso? sencillo, no se como crear ese desapego y comenzar hacer yo nuevamente, no se por donde comenzar, quiero retomar mi vida profesional, ser la esposa de nuevo, tener tambien un espacio para mi un tiempo a solas.
Suena muy duro pero es que no por mi querer y sentir dejo de ser esa madre entregada y apasionada. Se y comprendo que debo volver a reencontrarme como MUJER pues de ello tambien depende el bienestar emocional de mi hijo, debo dejar aun lado esta culpa que me come y ese miedo que me invade, para dar paso a un nuevo crecimiento, crecimiento que permitira que Camilo se abra a nuevas experiencias, y que yo vuelva a retormar una actividad donde me sienta util y es que el dia a dia aunque hacemos mil actividades se vuelve rutinario y hace estragos.
Estos ultimos dias ha sido duros de comentarios de seres que me aman que me piden a gritos que es hora de dar el paso, pero no se si realmente es el momento por eso ese choque de emociones tan fuerte en mi vida. Tambien veo las necesidades emocionales de un cambio ese cambio que permita vernos diferentes fisica y emocionalmente. Pero la verdad que no se que hacer, es fuerte tomar decisiones siempre es muy fuerte.
Hoy mas que nunca se que para que mi hijo este FELIZ me debe ver a mi ser feliz, por ende he decido buscar la manera de reencontrarme de ofrecer cosas distintas y de que con este cambio se superen etapas. Quiero actuar con consonancia y ofrecer a mi rol de madre aspectos mas positivos.
Por ende hoy busco mi mejor version de MUJER para seguir amando apasionadamente y para seguir aportando en la vida de quienes amo.
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When that little love arrives, our love changes, I don't even know how to explain it, everything is turned in virtue of them, we are like in the second plane, since the demands of the baby are so many that even to cover our needs becomes complicated even with the accompaniment and the help of the couple, it is that as mothers with that overprotective instinct we leave ourselves behind as if we didn't exist.
JUST today I am living one of the hardest stages of this separation and I find myself in this dilemma, Camilo is already growing and begins to have other needs, and lately I have also been feeling bad, because I don't even feel like combing my hair, hahaha.... If I am in active thinking mode, what does that mean? simple, I do not know how to create that detachment and start doing me again, I do not know where to start, I want to resume my professional life, be the wife again, also have a space for me some time alone.
It sounds very hard but it is not because of my love and feelings that I stop being that devoted and passionate mother. I know and I understand that I must find myself again as a WOMAN because the emotional well being of my son also depends on it, I must leave aside this guilt that eats me and this fear that invades me, to give way to a new growth, growth that will allow Camilo to open himself to new experiences, and that I return to resume an activity where I feel useful and the day to day even though we do a thousand activities becomes routine and wreaks havoc.
These last few days have been hard of comments from people who love me who are screaming at me that it is time to take the step, but I do not know if it is really the right time, that's why this clash of emotions is so strong in my life. I also see the emotional needs of a change that change that allows us to see ourselves different physically and emotionally. But the truth is that I don't know what to do, making decisions is always very hard.
Today more than ever I know that for my son to be HAPPY he must see me being happy, therefore I have decided to look for a way to meet again to offer different things and to overcome stages with this change. I want to act with consonance and offer more positive aspects to my role as a mother.
Therefore, today I am looking for my best version of WOMAN to continue loving passionately and to continue contributing to the lives of those I love.
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