There's so much to unpack here man. I don't know where to start but for sure, I can't articulate in words. I guess this is what my dad felt like at some point in our life. It's awesome that you recognize you have other wealth, which is your family. I hope that you're able to move to Italy and have a better life.
ps : I did not forget to write, I just don't write them on hive 😂
Oh, I'm glad you didn't forget to write, I actually worried that you might never get back to writing and that is horrible, it is quite a lot to unpack I know, I'm feeling suffocated as it is, so I know how others could feel while reading it... Wealth is a lot more than money, and I recognize other types of wealth in my life, yet I still feel that Plan A or B are my only two choices for moving forward in life.