I think the first thing that I have come to be grateful for is the impact of growth. I was reading a post in response to the prompt and my mind opened up to how much change can mean at a particular point in time. Change is dynamic, it can take many forms and it can happen when you least expect it.
As a kid, I enjoyed eating butter and honey but now, their smells could be nauseating to me. I also loved to create insane stories in my head regarding certain things and to a certain extent, I still do it but I am more in control of what I let up there because I understand the power my mind has. There are a lot of things I remember loving. Long walks, going out visiting friends, watching soap operas and what not. Now, it’s not the same.
In the same way, I can attribute it to my person in how I have evolved as a human being. I find that trying to get people to see things my way (especially when I feel it is right) is unbearably exhausting, explaining why I do things or why I don’t makes me want to ram my head into a wall. Talking about things that don’t interest me to try to make the other person comfortable (or like me) gives me a headache. I prefer silence most of the time. I would rather be misunderstood than go out of my way to please you. I can’t even be bothered by your perception of who I am. I don’t know how or when it happened but slowly, I found myself craving more of the simple things: peace, quiet, mental stability, genuine connections, love, service among other things.
I grew up afraid of dark places but now I crave them. I want to lock myself up and spend time with my person. I want to bask in the silence of my soul, just be one with the woman I really am. I am not afraid of my thoughts (on most days), I seek them, let them in, dissect them and embrace them. I prefer to be alone most days and away from the noise of the world. This is why I love dancing (even if I don’t know how to). It helps me connect with the most abstract parts of myself. I don’t know how to explain it except it is a spiritual language and it tethers me to the consciousness of how big the world is and how much my existence, as insignificant as it might be, is predestined and purposed.
Leave life not to please anyone is the greatest peace of mind anyone can have
Indeed. You got it.
Live free or die hard just like the movie
Lmao. How fitting. 😄
Being bothered about other people perception is a waste of energy because we can't help people see us as we intend to. Our taste and interest change with time and maturity.
I think this is common among youth, we just want a soft life, have genuine friends and peace. No unnecessary drama, stress free life
Indeed. Many youths as they approach elder years want to be free from the drama. Nothing else matters than being at peace with yourself.
That is the subtle art of being alone. Mastering solitude. It's a beautiful thing, really. It can be safe -- when in control. That explaining myself to people, or even seeking permission to be, I retired a century ago. You're doing well slow dancing in the dark, Dera.
Yeah, I guess. I have always preferred being on my own but let's just say I am only coming around to accepting that it is who I am and I don't always have to feel guilty about it. Always feels like I'm shutting people out but meh, I'm over it now.
We Live, We Love, We Lie.