Yeah, you are right about it, the realization but it still does not change the fact that I have trained my mind to say "I am sorry" to people I know I offended and they need my apology, I am always sincere about that but I never force myself to say "I am sorry" to people I decided to hurt as a sign of retaliation, I mean that's me being a pretender and I don't know and don't like to pretend because where Is the fun paying people back with their coin, where is the fun giving people a dose of their medicine if I have to tell them I am sorry when I don't mean it 😁
Have you ever thought of going into law enforcement? Because what I got out of the post is that you are a hand that strikes in judgment.
Even though, before I judge someone, I love to give them benefit of doubt, make excuses for them, and expect so much from them that at the end of the day, I find myself questioning myself on why I do that, I still do it because I don't like to judge people.
And I get that "joining law enforcement statement from people all the time" but I don't want to because I am not sure to come out the same way.
Seriously, it is tiring being on the other side of the world and people who have not experienced it may never get to know and understand the strength it takes.
Thank you
I see your point. And you are welcome