Losing a loved one isn't an easy thing to navigate through; I could remember when my mum died, I felt my world crumbling before my eyes, but then I had to pick myself up because, after the tragedy, I was still faced with my decisions on how to go through life without my mother.
I'm happy you are okay and doing alright; picking those pieces and getting up can't be easy, but you are here doing all great; kudos to you, dear.