all right we're um whoa we're in an immersive view welcome ladies and gentlemen to the wall yeah we're on a wall we're pictures on a wall on your on a black screen you're probably holding in your hand according to the statistics on the youtubes
wow this is uh this is really something we're portraying we're moving portraits it's like harry potter literally yeah stop immersive view like i can't stand it ladies and gentlemen still recording all right yeah this is this is going up as soon as we're done probably because i still haven't got an army of monkeys to turn whatever like had i been successful at this point i would drop this this mp4 into the discord and then out would come onto the studio things with bumpers on the front bumpers on the back links in the description all of that with me just be going wow it's good to be talent you know
yeah i know you know which is why we're here today on this i think i'm going to call it um fringe cringe chad and grizz
so here we go everybody um by now you should know how to do the savings throws or i should have a video that explains it i don't um here we go what are savings thrones savings throws chad okay so like
role-playing games are are simulations of historical and other fantasy events and like when you have a conflict they offsource the resolution of conflict to random dice rolls and a savings throw is one such random dice roll which which is like something bad is about to happen to you if you make a roll what happens is less bad than if you don't make the roll and then the story continues it kind of reminds me of like when you would have like uh like a shaman and they would like get some bones together and like spit in a shell and like throw the bones in there and shake it up and they're like this is you're about to shoot your pants or something like that additionally fun fact all the dice used like these this is these are manifestations like uh instantiations of the sacred geometry for that number of points like the four side the six side the eight side those are the sacred geometry 3d representations i let the audience choose survival social wisdom or heart because that that invokes their magical persona and their consent to participate and it lets the whole thing it's like a spiritual spiritual permission slip of participation by letting them choose you see yeah so everybody choose why are they carved on the bone not these pick one chad survival social wisdom or heart you don't have to tell anybody but hold it in can i after can i after you can tell okay all right here comes the rolls everybody save against mind control whoo survivalists got a nat 20 and that 20 is like the best possible you can get on the die and like if you have a good dungeon master you get like bonuses for doing the best you could have done by rolling in that 20. so way to go survivalists socialize socialists are coming in strong with the lucky number 13 and all the associated triggers that gives for the people who chose that uh wisdom and heart are both coming in at deuces lamb 22 if you put them together uh but they aren't together they're separate so both wisdom and heart are going to be tore up by what comes after this so tune away if you're if you you want out now otherwise we're going deep ladies and gentlemen i am griswold gaia scrim of the first larp regression protocol and have i have with me today documentary filmmaker from underneath the bridges of meaning chad the alcoholic hello i'm chad the alcoholic and uh thanks for having me i picked i picked survival because uh two of my on online friends um told me that i had that they had dreams where i died and one of them thought i died had a dream where i died in a car accident and the other one had a dream where i killed myself so i picked survival because there is no agency and i wanted to see if their dreams were coming true or not so thank god for that well they might have chad those dreams might have come true but not only did you roll your savings through you not twentied your savings through so like there may be even other life like bonuses in your life now oh sweet so tell me about this documentary film you're making because i heard they brought in a ringer comp to compete with you
yeah i don't know if they brought somebody to compete with me because they would win um there's not much just like there is no agency there is no competition so not to say that i'm not about competition i just don't have enough gumption or
mind power or
minions to help uh create the film that i'd like to create which i think would be a great film uh but i'm not sure if if uh how great it is so do you tell me did you ask me to tell you about it yes okay so here's the thing the film would be basically no no it would be it is chad speaking is is it's because like okay it's you it's you're holding on to the idea and you think it's yours but really you're just like the anal sphincter for it and if you open your wisdom center a little bit wider the spirit of the documentary can manifest through right your ego is just clenching a little too hard about how you're a piece of crap and you can't do it if you loosen that up and let it happen through you this documentary is gonna change the hearts and minds of people who need it so okay all right that's very good thank you i needed that um inventorial and encouragement you got to keep your wisdom centers open man we're playing game christ as far as i can tell all right so the film is uh called this corner of the internet it's not meant for people who are here necessarily it's meant for those who have not yet made it who may trip over it or who will trip over it so the film is about this corner of the internet um and it follows uh it follows the narrative it follows the narrative of what happened here how did this come to be what what you find when you get here um what kind of what kind of spirits you may find the difficulty is figuring what the what what the spirit of the film exactly is because what i found is the only thing we've been able to really call this corner of the internet is this corner of the internet and that is an undefined term which i think is wonderful so when you when we go when we went to make the film uh it it uh it became a kind of a funny paradox to be able to define that while not being able to define it and so it's uh for for me the vision i first had for the film is um working on a job site uh tripping over joe rogan because of the the guy who turned out to be later to be my best man said you should check out joe rogan so i'm listening to joe rogan and um probably the fifth or sixth video i listened to or tripped over was the jordan peterson video and i never heard of this cat and so i was like stunned by it because i liked um
cut okay so it's like this you open you're at the job site right and your dude walks up he's like dude you should check out joe rogan right and then cut you cut to immediately like just juxtapose like with that you dancing and you got that last the dancing video like pet cow's version of you doing that dance yeah make chad pope and then that's like the teaser for it so we can shoot that already okay what other footage do you have in the can have you ever i haven't called grim yet is he in the corner or does he like just throw spit balls at the corner what's up with him no he's he's certainly in the corner he is one of the
he's one of the one of the nerve endings one one of the things that run through the spine of the deal even though see what's interesting about it is i never think about my spine until it hurts so but it's always there so i think that griswold grimm is there uh i think um
well vander clay clearly is there he's kind of like he's somewhere in here somewhere in the neck of the deal um and then there's all sorts we got to take a time out we gotta take a time out let's go to um whatever the kitchen let's go to the kitchen for a second okay oh i'm gonna have to lean turn the light up this is okay this is close enough i'm a ghost in the kitchen and you're over by the toaster now i think so man i hear you talking about this corner and um sometimes there's things up in the corner and they pull you into entirely different realities do you think that's what happens when you stumble across a community on the internet that's so resonant with what you need in your life right now oh yeah certainly and it's not always for the good either it doesn't at the time doesn't seem like it's for the good anyways because uh it can be distracting from like the actual the meat space which is probably more important well it's it's like a maslow hierarchy man like or or even if you want to stick with the care agency it's your capacity to care if if your back hurts you you don't have the agency to extend care to [ __ ] like fixing your life by finding a community on the internet you're like i gotta eat you know so it's like a priorities thing but if if you get to the point where you're comfortable enough to start pursuing the more finer parts of self-refinement maybe this corner helps oh yeah certainly there's i i certainly don't think i would have ever tripped over something like a pocket assist or what the did you just say chad the alcoholic uh it's called a pocket's asses apocalypse yeah i'm probably pronouncing that wrong but basically it just means the redemption off of all things oh the whole thing which yes which is something i guess i believed in before i was captured by christ which made sense to me but
once i was you know captured by christ it was more like that kind of came with some old ideas they started trying some old aggregators trying to try making their way into my spiritual thinking and it and it it just they had to be stuck dude your mustard seed is always like feeding so much stuff that you don't even know are your axiomatic beliefs i mean because they're so foundational to how you operate they're so far deep in the roots of your mind that unless you uh have cause to go exploring they're just gonna operate and
what happens is like verily verily i say unto you if you had no faith you could move that mountain like all that faith is pumping into like self-limiting horse [ __ ] usually sure i'm sorry yeah sorry no no it's good it's like well of course you can move them out and go over there and grab a handful of sand and throw it no but how much faith are you how much faith are you pouring into the notion that you can't move that mount oh yeah well yeah like you just look at the mountain and like all like behind you is all your face that you can't move it right well i think that part of what happened what might have happened is something called cinema cinematography and huge budgets to market cinematography which was a good thing and a bad thing because what it did was
you're describing a bomb to me but i don't know where the bomb is hitting well what happened was they took the mystical and captured it and put it into a box and said it's television and it's all fake right well they they made it seem like it was fake because you got used to seeing it captured in a box and you got we got so used to it being in a box that became nearly impossible to believe that that this whatever you found in that box could actually manifest outside the box it was actually manufa manifesting outside the box so i think that's what i think that's what happened and they so it was a complete lie that well that that's uh that's accusatory it's inflammatory and accusatory it's really like a complete lie um well i think that it's necessary i think we needed it i gotta say i gotta say though what what you're describing to me i chunk as um i didn't even realize i i felt that history was pretty much over things were settled because like we're the pinnacle of human evolution and this is the way it is so i had always felt it like you know things weren't going to change things were under control everything safe under control and settled the history was over and like once that cracked
that was so like you're saying what they did that's for me it cracks like that that history's not over right well right that's what i'm saying and then so i think this is where our deep desire and obsession to enter our black mirror comes from to recapture the mystical and oh so you think that's why we're spending so much time in these internet these time spaces these i think this part of it yeah i think it's it's just like joining the tension spaces right well yeah i think basically it's a one a basic principle of we're always seeking something that is great and beautiful and lovely and some and some many of us like myself are easily um sometimes the quickest thing that works is i'll use that for a while so like for me it was you know music or and then films and then um drugs and alcohol worked really well and then now it's like but it's the whenever it's whatever they they captured in the the in the screen i need to get that so i will i will crawl into there and i will spend all my time crawling back into there so i can recapture and so we can pull it out and bring it into the into the mystical world not the screen world so i think it's like a hero's journey back into the something like that like a journey into the bottom of the depths to grab all right talk to me in an upper and lower register about the mystical and the screen world
well i would say that the mystical world is the world that you the room that you're actually sitting in right now not the one i see on the screen the place that you are actually or say the place that i am right here this is where miracles actually happen and and therefore that's why it's the mystical realm well things like things like deja vu happen here right does it it doesn't it doesn't i don't understand how that works but like i experienced it quite often and there's no ex explaining that but that this is the real space now deja vu doesn't happen on the on remember anybody no but yeah it does like i've been staring at a screen when the deja vu feels kicked in before well yeah but well i don't know i had something i don't want to lose okay um the dreamer the dreamer um so like
one of peterson's big nailing points is that like society is based on the the inner divinity to like that guy could be jesus and we don't even know um is like the foundation but the atheists can't have that and they need something and the something they can have is the dreamer because we all dream and that's i think like if you if they can use that as the foundation for for law the way that the west has used christianity up until now we may be able to get to some nice place and and that i i coz in that earlier and i wanted to bring it from whatever realm to to your mystical yeah well i think that that's that's true i mean my my big problem with christians yeah why do who are you to have a problem with christians bro well the the problem is is the deep desire to hear the words of somebody else and proclaiming uh that they are believers of a certain way like i was in one of these discord server discussions and they were talking about how a certain internet um intellectual um one of the canadians uh and it's not peter singh and it's not pajama how they needed to how they needed to um say that they were they needed to be christian somehow they and i said why what does that matter what does that change anything and so that bothers me you know i think that what i'm trying to say is so we could say the christians have christ or the atheists have dreams and it's all the same to me that's what i'm trying to say and our little categories is [ __ ] they can't one two she was coming for you as it's like uh infighting as a way to avoid facing external realities every time i hear the name of a protestant branch right is that the same vibe as what you're saying yeah i mean now maybe somebody needs that maybe somebody needs to have a certain way of looking at things so that they can see the world and understand it that's fine but i don't need you but by no means does that require you to make sure others say the same thing i don't think and maybe i'm being hypocritical in this statement but i think teaching your song then hypocrite so the one thing is is like so do you know like legion right yeah yeah i love legion legions uh in many ways uh pulled my my my world view into it into alignment that it needed to be in the one thing when you walk away from the legion story that you that i walked away from with it is christ never told legion to go tell people what to believe he told him go tell them what the lord did that's it he didn't even say go tell him what i did he said go tell him what the lord did dude he didn't say go over there and tell those people what to believe and how to how to live and the other thing is legion wasn't even baptized and the other thing so it doesn't like all this stuff to me dude i almost came out last night with my open heresy so i might as well do it now like i think you all are [ __ ] up i think that like whatever jesus and his boys had they encoded secretly in the stories but it's about you and god not how to act in the world it's about because if you clean your teeth if you run the money lenders out of your own temple there's a start right and if you can clean up your act you can quit drinking the beers you can quit drinking the caffeine you can get off the nicotine you can drink some water maybe maybe go to your closet pray in the sun maybe god will tell you what's up there you know maybe that's what like going in the desert for 40 days is supposed to do for you is to like clean your communication channel with god and then you don't have to worry about what you believe because you can feel it and embody it remember everybody well yeah dude that's the whole that's the whole basic that's chris to me being a christian means you're like christ and christ lived right so be a walking conviction if you want to be a christian don't tell me what you are embody yeah but that's that's basically what i when i was the way that i was living life for like eight years before the legion thing happened and it was at the bottom of the wall it was the idea of being a seeker right and then so a seek to me being a seeker and the servants are kind of hand in hand and that to me is where the channel is cleared right and because if i don't need to okay how do i how do i explain this okay so in the in the literature for alcoholics anonymous it says god couldn't what if he were sought it doesn't say god couldn't what if you were found so to me it's in the seeking where the real magic happens right so you know the only the great difficulty i had by being captured by christ was i i forgot that i had to remain being a seeker and so i've fallen asleep at the wheel a little bit and that's on me you know and it's so like good to you you can be asleep at the wheel for all your life so it's always good when you catch it you know yeah well the problem with falling asleep at the wheel or say like when you come home from work and you come down to watch some netflix and you're sitting there next thing you know you wake up it's eight hours later you're like what the hell happened you don't know what well dude isn't like seeking first the kingdom on there yes yes right first first but we want to seek ourselves first so if you're gonna be on netflix that's at least what you should search for
uh i thought that would be kind of cool if somebody like a big film studio that like makes marvel or whatever they made like a big like like a really heavy duty story of the pocket i don't want the devil's machine to make stuff give this [ __ ] bro i'll tell you what though we make something we're already doing hey you know you know what your documentary needs
like um something that people can see happened right right so like like if somebody saw this and started a gofundme for you and me to make a pilgrimage to sacramento to shoot some footage for the documentary and swing some hammers on a church and then that gofundme got funded and we actually made the pilgrimage then that we could document
for sure dude that would be totally badass hey no no no no don't put that away let's try this thing together i'm gonna i'm ready to close man i can't i don't go for long it's short and intense baby no not nothing copyright we gotta avoid that to teach me your song that was epic um what's the first thing yeah yeah yeah
pretty please spin janice thank you
all right well let's see if i can uh let's [ __ ] it
well i don't know about the meaning crisis left right
left right black white or other vices left right right black white rather vices why don't we know about the meaning crisis left right black white or other vices which jesus christ is right or if we're all saved
so which jesus christ is right or if we're all saved okay so i'm gonna hold on to the one i have right now what's the next one after that from my perspective our propositions participate procedurally running in circles all right okay let's do the first two lines and then i'll dramatically end recording okay
okay all right like nod when i should start singing okay okay
don't you start strumming before and then i
well i don't know about the meaning crisis left right black wide or other vices