Christianity and religion as a whole is actually a touchy subject. It's a topic full of holes and contradictions indeed.
If I decide to take a look from an atheist pov
The books of the bible at times really don't make practical sense 😂 yet all Christians choose to believe because... There is nothing better to believe in.
I admire the fact that you chose Christianity of your own accord. Most people just identify as christians in a way as their following the crowds, others it was due to their parents or guardians being Christians, hence they dont understand truly what it means to be a Christian.
I think if we try to make sense of everything in the Bible we'll just be putting our minds in a one ticket trip to insanity for the following reasons;
- We identify God as a divine being.
Him being divine means his ways shouldn't easily be understood by we mortals
- The bible is actually a mixmatch of translations as you mentioned.
A lot of things could be cut out and a lot added, just to at least try and make sense of what our predecessors experienced.
In conclusion, although it's an unpopular opinion; we just have to exercise faith and believe in what we read from tbe Bible 🤗
The world is complex. We will only ever understand a small percentage of it. The rest we either accept it as unknown or draw our own conclusions based on what we think we know.
That's deep bro. Real and deep