For your encouragement, @leveuf, on this ...
"... but my fear is if I'm in some kind of list that restricts me to enter."
... I can share with you that I made my request to at.jaynie directly. To which she replied "Done!" After she left the luvbug comment on your post here.
So ... If there was any issue from the past, we can hope there is always a new day and the granting of a second chance! 😊
In this precise moment I'm heading there my dear friend!! ;)
A great hug, @Roleerob!!