I feel like I'm writing this a lot but I have been feeling exhausted lately. It's been a struggle to get through the workday and once that's done I've been on the couch. My mom has pushed me to try and find another doctor. I finally did yesterday, will have to wait a month for the appointment though. Hopefully, I'll get some help, my previous doctor was quite useless, to be honest.
Earlier this week my employer offered me a new contract. Working 75% until September (like I do now), and from then on 50% until the end of the year. Even though that's kind of what I wanted I reluctantly accepted. Feels hard to work this much throughout the summer (even though I'll have a holiday). But that's also because I feel like I do. I feel I really need to rest now. But well, I know the financial uncertainty also would be stressful, if I just didn't work for some time. And since I'm feeling like I do I don't really trust that I would have enough energy to manifest what I would like to happen. I have been in that situation before and that wasn't fun. Taking a leap of faith and then falling.
But it's hard to know. Because sometimes that's just what we need to do. And that's the dilemma I have been dealing with lately. But well, I chose to stay in the system for now. I'll also really try to get help from the traditional health care system. It's about time. And this time I will not accept them telling me I'm depressed. That has been true sometimes in the past but not now. I know how it feels to be clinically depressed and I'm far from that. But of course, I'll continue to do what I can to heal myself in a natural way. Meditate, practice yoga, walk in nature, eat healthily, and so on.
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