This brought so many things to mind. I was going to write them, but there was so much, I'm putting it in a post instead. What I will add here, which doesn't really fit there, is what you say about the two faced feeling with wanting to escape the system, but continually contributing to it, because how else to you survive?
I have read a few stories about people who spent years earning high incomes in jobs that were destructive to either the environment or other people and suddenly coming to a realisation that this isn't what they want to be doing, it's what they thought they were supposed to do, because you're suppressed to be successful, aren't you?
So they've quit their job and bought a homestead with all that money they've made. While it's great that they've had this epiphany, part of me can't help but seethe over the fact that they can only afford to do that through the ill gotten gains in the first place. Those of us who never went that path to start with are lucky if we can even consider getting a mortgage for a place. Then we need to continue in that workforce, we may not be fully aligned with, in order to pay back that mortgage. Catch 22 all around, in the end.