Loved this post. I admire your honesty in basically being shit - something I've been guilty of, and still am. Not in a beat myself up way, just in a way that recognises that maybe if I'm complaining about my life, it's me that needs to get off the proverbial couch and do something? I'm big on the hour a day rule - mainly with my garden, to be honest. Feels good.
Wow hahaha I did not say that... Just kidding, I kinda did. Do you know that after posting the article, I felt terrible. "Why the fuck was I thinking?" "Am I oversharing?" "who the fuck cares about my method, and once again it's all about me me me me".
A day after, now it feels good, it's something I wanted off my chest for months. So one hour a day, I wrote my ideas down for that article. Full circle.
To go back to what you were saying, I wasn't always "shit". Once upon a time, I excelled at what I was doing, which was a result of hours and hours of practice, during my sophomore years, and while studying music at school, and after during the beginning of my professional career. But what happened, is that later on in my life, I completely forgot to keep on practicing, keep on improving. I took it for granted...
Truth is, we keep on learning until we diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiie (dramatic music)
Hope your garden is doing well 😊