Nicky, whatever is going on with you right now, this can't be a good idea. Please take remove the link and just brain dump post after post until you can get it all out.
Please take care of you
PS im downvoting this to try and hide it. Please understand im trying to help and not be malicious .
Thank you for you engagement.
I trust the process. I'm not going to live like this for the remainder of my days.
And I've tried pretty much everything else so