You speak like a man that has undergone a thousand processes each with a different form of pain.
I know it because I have felt the same way before. But the truth is...
Taming your expectations would help you deal with the pain.
I have come to terms with the fact that humans are people who have a thousand flaws and part of those flaws for some people is their uncanny ability to play Judas over and over again.
We can't stop trusting people because they broke our hearts. We can only manage our trust in such a relationship given that the relationship is not parasitic.
Life in all becomes beautiful when we look at it as a mosaic formed by a thousand broken pieces.
This sums it all up. It's quite challenging to actually thread this line. But it's not impossible. I'm someone who knows how to excellently manage my trust and life, emotions and expectations very well, but there are times I wonder if it's everyone that has the mental capacity to actually to manage theirs. In this post I was frustrated by the lack of loyalty out there and how it's difficult to do things with your heart when you're being taken advantage of. Thanks for coming through.