There's a lot I could comment on here, very interesting, as always. Thank you for sharing 🌸
This really made me stop and think:
Another much more subtle habit that I've had to alchemize, especially in recent months, is the false modesty of keeping myself small before others. Failing to recognize my rank and authority isn't a form of humility, but a sophisticated form of vanity, a holier-than-thou attitude based on insecurity that actually limits my capacity to do my service properly.
I tend to keep myself small a lot too. I haven't made this connection and I have to contemplate more if this feels true for me. But I struggle a lot at the moment when it comes to expressing myself. I tend to second-guess myself a lot. I don't really recognize myself, to be honest. It's been a rather regressive journey lately, or at least it feels like that. So I can see that keeping myself small is based on insecurity somehow. Mostly in the sense that I have kind of lost my purpose. But I don't want to come across as too pessimistic, I never know when things will turn around 🙂
Blessings to you 🌻
Thank you for your comment, dear! Yes, that's a tricky thing, because we're told almost from birth that we should never stand out too much which, coupled with all the other ways that our opinions are diminished when we're younger, creates the conviction that we're really not that important. It's really hard to work through that.
For what it's worth, I've always seen you as a truly remarkable person even though I don't know you too well. I think you live in Light and spread kindness, and that's beautiful!
Thank you, that means a lot to me to hear from you 💚
Kindness is actually something I have started to question lately. I’m not sure I can call myself a kind person and feel that it’s really true. But it’s still something I aspire to be but I fail sometimes.