She... — Hive

She’s always been that girl full of contradictions… simple, yet complicated. She tries hard to be like everyone else, but somehow, it feels difficult. She hates being the center of attention as much as she dislikes being ignored.

She stands with others, talks, and smiles, but never fully shows who she really is. She always hides what people want to see, never letting her outside match her inside, and that exhausts her. She holds back her wonder at everything in public, always more captivated by what happens in secret.

She loves honesty and is inspired by simplicity, even if it’s not perfect. She’s drawn to spontaneity, never feeling comfortable around “perfect” people. She finds comfort with those who make mistakes, those with a natural beauty—not the dazzling kind. She admires qualities that are simply good rather than extraordinary and likes people who are kind, quiet, unnoticed, understanding, deeply honest, warm-hearted, and far from the spotlight.

Routine suffocates her; she’s never worried about things happening. She’s certain her real struggle is with emptiness, when there’s nothing important or exciting to dive into. That’s what unsettles her and beats in her heart with drums of boredom and despair. Her mind wanders often, staring at things as if she could see right through them. Lost in her silence, she doesn’t speak much; but when she does, a word is enough.

She hates falling into patterns and wonders how her dreams can feel so real yet so false at the same time. How they can feel so solid and yet so faded. How she can be so present yet so close to vanishing, shrinking down to just a pause between two silences.

This picture was created by ChatGPT based on my current life. 🤡😁

all content provided in this post is my own property