Most people know me to be the “very emotionally collected/organized” lady. Others even think I’m heartless because you’ll barely see me crumbling emotionally even when the situation requires me to. There have been times where bad things happened to me and people got surprised as to how I responded. Of course, it’s only my pillow(Stacy) who sees all the “behind the scenes”.
Truth is, I am not as strong as people think I am, emotionally. I am a full time cry baby and I’m going to blame that on the fact that I am the last child of my parents and the only daughter as well. When I’m around people, I barely show any form of emotions. I have come to realize that people are very quick to use your emotions against you the moment they see your emotional scale.
I try as much as possible to never really express how hurt or sad or angry I am at someone or situation especially when people are around. Even when I’m angry, I’d rather laugh about it than to genuinely express it because my true anger comes with tears. Thankfully, I realized this at a very early age.
As a kid, anytime my brothers did something to annoy me, instead of me showing the normal anger that all other kids showed, I would just cry about it. Cry till my mom makes them apologize. When I grew up, I realized the world wasn’t my mom’s house where I could cry about things or people till they apologize. In fact what are the odds that they would even apologize?
Anyone who knows me know that I laugh a lot but that’s just a defense mechanism to this whole thing called life. No, I’m neither a pessimistic person nor do I see life in a terrible lens. I just have a really soft heart and spot for people which makes it very easy for things to get to me. In this 21st century, you really can’t survive with that hence, that fence I’ve built.
For now, most people around me don’t even know this and might even get shocked finding out this way. Yes, I’ve already accepted I’m not a “thug”. I’m a softie and not a savage. I’ve tried so hard to work on this because it makes no sense to always waste tears on certain things. If I could ignore this, I wouldn’t even think twice but as I said, not everything deserves my tears.
So, I’m just rather focusing on getting better at choosing the kind of things that deserve my tears.
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I'm a crybaby too, that's not a bad thing. The only thing is that I like to cry in front of others, because the weaker they see you, the more they abuse you.
Yeah exactly, the latter is what makes it a bad thing.
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It is very difficult to be a sensitive person in this cruel world, I have known this first hand, because my sensitivity is sometimes difficult to control. Hugs
Aww, I’m sorry about that.
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I tend to cry when I get mad as well; things people do to animals that is cruel will also reduce me to tears; or sometimes, it's seemingly nothing at all.
I hide this attribute of mine as best I can, but am not always successful. I am glad to know I'm not the only softie! Take care and thanks for sharing!
Oh, you’re not the only one at all.
It’s my pleasure.
Have a great day.
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I know you as cond__ girl but I think that should be a Dreemport inhouse name😂😂😂
Awwwn you're a crybaby?
Sorry iyeeeh
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Seki!!!🤣🤣🤣🤣
What’s bobo? I hope it’s not what I think 🤣
It's you that knows what you're thinking 😂😂😂
I think that most of the strongest people in the world are those who are very good at concealing what they feel. You are right about the world. It doesn't give a shit and it never will. The best possible way is to square up and take it or just don't. Either way, you're right about emotions.
I wish you could see how heavy I sighed. The world and it’s people really care less and just as you said, it’s either you move or you don’t but most times you have to move because nobody will wait for you to finish dealing with your crises.
turns away with execute bbl
I guess the thug phase was very rewarding 😄but eventually, we all come to this realization. Also, I feel that crying is a great way to let go of unnecessary and unproductive emotions. It only goes to show that you are in control of your emotions...:)
Mmmm, That’s another way to see it crochet queen
Yes my darling 😌😄
Some time ago it happened to me, when I was upset, that feeling of helplessness made me cry, thanks for sharing!
Oh I’m sorry about that
I'm not far from the same club.
Putting up a facade of strength when I'm not strong as I make myself to be.
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Ohhh I’m sorry about that
It's the simple truth.
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It sounds like you’re describing a situation where your outward calmness leads people to underestimate your emotional struggles. It’s understandable why you might feel like you need to keep your emotions hidden, especially if you believe others might use them against you. It’s important to remember that everyone has their own way of coping and processing feelings, and it’s okay to show vulnerability to those you trust. Your emotional experiences are valid, and it’s perfectly fine to express them in a safe and supportive environment. Thanks for sharing dear, do have a lovely day
Thank you and have a lovely day as well.
Wow, I totally relate to this! People often think I'm emotionally strong, but like you, I also hide my true feelings. It’s comforting to know I’m not alone in using laughter as a defense. Thanks for sharing your story. it really touched me.
I’m sorry about that and yes you’re not alone at all.
This is so me. Life will even train u not to cry in the presence of others, but when I am alone, i cry and still convince myself that it is good to cry sometimes and let off the steam.
Of course, it’s okay to cry when you have to.
Crying eases tension for me. When I get too much tension built up I just cry to feel light again.
Aw
I said nothing 😑
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You discovered that world that is out there and of course never the same as the protection of your family home. You're right if people take advantage of your good feelings sometimes. What a good closure, knowing what tears to shed and what battles to face. You are brave, good people and you still don't know it. Very successful. A hug. @abenad
Descubriste ese mundo que esta allá afuera y por supuesto nunca el igual a la protección de tu hogar familiar. Tienes razón si las personas se aprovechan de tus buenos sentimientos a veces. Que buen cierre saber que lagrimas derramar y que batallas enfrentar. Eres valiente, buena gente y todavía no lo sabes. Muchísimo éxito. Un abrazo.
This really means a lot to me,Sacra💕
Thank you, hug received ☺️