I am experiencing dark days and weak conditions that emotionally tortured my 2022, and it has been a labyrinth of sorrows. Although it might have healed a little, the scars in my heart will always be fresh.
My greatest sorrow of 2022 is the tragic death of my dearest sister.
I lost my sister and it is the hardest reality that I am facing now. Perhaps my greatest sorrow of 2022 is the immediate, tragic death of my sister @erikasue, due to a vehicular accident.
Although I was saved momentarily from the accident, it was harsh and painful that she was gone forever.
It was hard to breathe, and I felt like I was dying inside. It is genuinely so hard to get up and so difficult to help myself. I drown myself in an ocean of tears.
Not only great sorrow, but I experienced trauma when I witnessed how my sister had a severe traumatic brain injury, and a very damaged body, after being hit by a vehicle while she was standing in the safest corner to wait for the bus while we were together.
Even now, I felt waking up in a vicious nightmare. Perhaps it was like a vividly realistic nightmare that disturbed a wonderful life I once had.
It was a day of various stories reminding me about the aches, broken pieces, stitches, and wounds of yesterday that eventually came in a flash.
I admit it was so painful, and it feels like I have difficulty breathing from within. I was dying inside, and all I could do was soak and drown myself in a labyrinth of deep sorrows and pain.
I wish I were more ready for the loss of a loved one.
I wish I were more prepared to battle for life. For the blackout of life, for the storm surges with rattles of thunder, for the heaviness of the world, for the pain and despair I want to run off from, for the blink of time passing by swiftly like a breezy December, and for the labyrinth of sorrows.
Indeed, people were not joking about how time flies so fast. It does fly, but the memories of yesterday were so vividly clear. Somehow I am feeling healed but have not recovered totally.
I am feeling like a bot at present. I am a robot that does not know how to wake up with a good sound of sleep every single day.
I am lighting the candles and including her in my prayers every time.
I did not realize that getting up in the morning would be so hard without my sister at my side, as we were living in the same house before.
And what I keep on looking forward to is my cup of tea and the storms in my teacup. Sometimes, I even think about hopelessness despite thinking about the brighter side of life. I have lots of what-ifs.
What if the world stops spinning for a little while? And what if the stars break the rules and whisper what they wrote for me so I can finally figure out where to go and move forward?
However, when hope knocks at my door, a light illuminates my mind to hold on to the ropes of faith and hope and never let go. I accept that sometimes we must die a million times to appreciate the wonders of a beautiful life.
It may not be straightforward, but as I go along the way, many reasons are worth staying for, and nothing is worth giving up. I bear in mind that while life remains, I will be experiencing various issues in life. And sometimes, I only appreciate the essence of every simple happiness when I have experienced a feeling of deep sorrow.
Still, I want to be alive and live life to the fullest, even if I feel like being died a million times. Moving on is critical, so I can always appreciate the consequences of what has happened in the past.
I will wait for hope to whisper to me with the brightest smile.
I will walk by faith while holding on and believing that life is precious and not worth giving up, for it will always be the greatest gift that is so priceless while thinking that it is also essential to learn the art of breathing from the inside. So I just let myself live despite all sorrows and despair.
I cannot change yesterday's path, yet I can always move forward on a winding road wherein life is going with the flow in every twist and turn.
I used to believe that there is a rainbow always after the rain, but all of a sudden, I often think of a gloomy sky that has its colors back.
I am just silently hoping for that one day when I will wake up, open my eyes, and realize that everything has stopped hurting and breaking me into pieces.
2022 has broken me into pieces. It is a labyrinth of sorrows. I never thought the most significant tragedy would hit me so badly.
The world is still whirling as fast as it always does, but as of this moment, I can finally catch up, makeup, and make the best out of it.
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The death of a loved one is definitely the greatest sorrow we would ever feel. But, even though she isn't with you anymore, for sure, she's guiding you wherever she is right now 😊
I agree with your words, jane. But it is just inevitable to feel a heartbreaking tragedy still. Indeed, the hardest and painful truth about life. Thanks for the uplifting words. I hope that God will heal my wounded heart at the most perfect time. I hope and pray. Once again, thank you so much sis.
I acknowledged your loss. In that case, I don't have any words to console you.
But that's the reality. Sometimes reality becomes so harsh to accept. I wish it were a nightmare.
Be strong because there don't have any other way to move forward.
You made me smile today, my dear friend, intishar with your kindest words. You know it has never been easy. Shall I say that the pain was so immeasurable? No words could certainly express how it all happened, and all I know is the most brutal truth. I genuinely appreciate your excellent remarks. Thank you so much for hearing my side. Have a wonderful day, and take cafe, my friend.
If that's true, then it's my pleasure and it's my best achievement for today.
And you don't need to say anything about it. I can guess about it.
Best wishes for you and be a brave girl. 💪
Nothing can heal the sorrow of loosing a loved one. I can just pray that your sister is in a better place than this world. I wish that God may make u stong enough to get trough the sorrow. Hope you get alot of happiness in this new year, be strong and keep smiling ❤️
That is so true, dear friend. The pain is still there. It is just learning to live with the pain. We all lose our loved ones, but what I have experienced is the worst since I did not expect that a tragedy would hit us badly when my late sister and I were together at that time. I never really thought that it would happen. Indeed, the most painful thing that ever happened to me in a flash. I hope and pray that all would be alright in time. Thank you so much sweet sister.
The forever departure of a loved one, is very painful and sad, I think we are not prepared to face that loss, the moments you shared together will be very treasured by you and you will always remember her with much affection, my father passed away several years ago and it hurts a lot his absence.
How I wish we are all ready for losing a loved one my dear friend. But in reality, when it suddenly comes, the more we are hurting and felt like being broken into pieces. Thank you so much for the comforting words and I so appreciate your attention. Keep safe always and have a wonderful day.
Blessings to you. I hope you're able to move forward again soon. 💜
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Thank you so much for the love and your comforting words dear kitty. I hope and pray for peace and comfort day by day. !LUV
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I imagine that it must have been difficult for you to write this, so kudos to you for gaining strength each day despite you not feeling it sometimes.
I wish you continued healing, courage, understanding, and strength 🙏
All good wishes for the new year 😇
Awww, I really need all your good wishes my dear friend, milly. Thank you so much for the love and care. I genuinely appreciate your motivation and inspiration to move forward despite the pain and struggles.
Perhaps I am learning the art of living with the pain every single day. But I am not giving up. I hope and pray that all will be alright at the most perfect time. Once again, thank you so much dear. Happy holiday! !PIZZA
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hi, my sweet Pink 🤗 we've said so much already these past few months so I will just say that I am sending you and your family so much love over this Christmas season. You are never far from my thoughts. This was a heartfelt read as usual. I hope you are blessed with love and peace in this coming year 💗 !LUV !LADY
Awww, you have been my listening ears and helping hands ever since, dear Sam. Thank you very much for being a part of my 2022. May 2023 bring us so much peace and comfort with our loved ones.
Best regards to you and your family. I wish you prosperity, abundance, and success in whatever path you take. Know that I may be silent for some time but you are always in my heart. I love you always and you know that. Happy new year to you! !PIZZA
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I'm so very sorry for you immense loss...
There aren't really any words for this that are helpful, articulate or meaningful enough.
You wrote it out so beautifully 👀
All I can say is that I hear you and I see you.
So much love, angel ❤️
I felt a light in my heart when I read your expressions of care and love for my dear friend, Nicky. I am grateful for your appreciation of my humble writing, but this is just me. Sometimes, some emotions may be suppressed by unexplainable things but through expressive writing, I felt relieved for a while. Know that you are one of the best parts of 2022 and I am thankful for meeting you here in Hive. Once again, thank you so much for listening to my sentiments and understanding my feelings. I love you dear. !LUV
Boy you do that well! How do you do that?? :)
You just seem to imbue your words with so much feeling, that it reaches out and physically touches me.
You have a gift, angel 💓
I find it so hard to express myself and be vulnerable. You do it so elegantly and honestly.
Thank you for this.
Adore our connection as well. And reading you and learning about you a bit more each time.
Happy almost 2023. Looking forward to another year with you 🥰
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I wish I could hug you; I had a loss this past 2022. But, It was not a sister because I do not have one. But, by reading your words, I can feel a little of your pain, and it makes me feel it too.
I hope you can find comfort in the past of time.
Awww, we both know that feeling that it was not really easy my dear friend. Thank you so much for hearing my sentiments and for understanding my sorrowful feelings and emotions. Perhaps this is a way of releasing a deep sorrow from within me. Know that I so appreciate your attention and I thank you so much for the comforting words. Sending much love to you sis.
Also, sending love 😉