Your story is quite intense and to be honest, your circumstances were responsible for the failure (not you). I won't say it was a failure, it was more like the pressure and fear that outsider was causing to you. He took advantage of your fear and I am sure you did what you could do back then. I wish you all the best dear and stay strong...
Thank you very much for your kind words. I have overcome it. I no long allow people feed on my fear