This is sad, my Mommy Merly (Mommy F first partner) also dies coz of breast cancer. And like you, I also have those kind of what ifs with me. It's not like I rebel or what, pero masyado akonh nasakal non kay Mommy F nong sya na ang nagpalaki sakin, what if Mommy Merly is still alive, mas masaya kaya ang childhood ko? Mga ganito ba.
Anyways, sana talaga a messenger from heaven exist no, where a certain of people in human realm can deliver a message to our love ones, what if lang. Sana nababasa nila yong message natin for them, especially yours.
Hmmm actually strict tong si Mommy Mia ko. Cguro nga mas strict yo kila mama if nagtagal eh. For sure masasakal din ako. Pero kahit anu man eh mas na feel ko pagka nanay niya sakin.