Hello @felipejoys. I opened ecency to jump on Hive to do my regular things and your post was at the top of my Feed.
Thank you for writing this brave, powerful post. If this is your truth, rather than an abstract piece of fiction, then there is much I can offer you at this time since dealing with the poison of the past is the work I do every day. I've been playing/working in this space for a decade so there is much I can share in small snippets here in the comments of your posts if you wish.
Only if you wish.
Wanted to offer as I want you to know that you're not alone and working through this stuff is something I could write about all day long.
Very big hug.
Conscious Cat, aka Caroline.