The rain continues to fall, it's been raining all day long ...
Huh, it feels lazy to do activities. Finally, all I did was stay in the room. The sound of rain makes me a little scared, but still dares to stare at every water that falls from the sky even though it is only behind a window. The water that is dewy on the window glass increasingly indicates that today's rain is really heavy. I felt a chill every time there was air entering through the blemishes of my room. Very cool ...
Ohhh God why am I reminded of that memory ..
3 months ago
"Assalamualaikum, who is this?"
"I'm Nurlin. You're offering right ..? "
"Yes ... Are you really Nurlin? How are you, Nurlin? "
"Alhamdulilah. How are you?"
"good, too"
Oh yes. I almost forgot. Nawir is a mysterious guy who always comes and goes in my life. I dated him on December 1, 2010, we dated 1 year after that he had no news. Do not know where it disappeared. After 2 years I was reunited with him. Through handphone again.
After talking on the cellphone earlier I and he started a new relationship. This time he is more romantic. More often give news, more attention, and very kind.
Every day I love him more. Every day he always gives news. In the morning before he left for school he would have called or texted me. After coming home from school, he will also call or text me. That night too, he would have called or texted me. Then, at dawn he would call or text me to wake me up at the dawn prayer. he was like an alarm to me. he always reminds me of praying, eating, etc. he is also a motivator for me. I'm always passionate about doing all my activities ...
After 10 days we make up again, I agreed to meet with him. It was Wednesday night, I don't remember what date. That night was the most pleasant night of my life. I met my prince after years of dating and never met. We go somewhere that I think is quite romantic. There we were just stories about why he disappeared and didn't give news. About his family, about his girlfriend after he had no news ...
After we talked at length, we suddenly fell silent. Shocked, he kissed my forehead .. I also responded with a romantic kiss. I have never kissed a man in my life. He was the first guy I kissed .. Can you imagine how bad I was at that time? But don't know, what's important is that it's happy ...
The next day, we promise again. This time he invites me to a place that is very romantic. Pantaiiii ... yeah, beach. We sit on the seashore, while enjoying the breeze.
That night was a very memorable night for me. Because that night he kissed my lips Crazy, no boy has kissed my lips besides him. he was the first person. And he was my first kiss .. ohh, God didn't expect that ..
The first week, everything was really crazy,
The second week is still sweet.
Enter the third week, still sweet.
Enter the fourth week, sweet.
The first month is all sweet. Entering the second month the sweetness is gone, it turns into acid ...
Disease again. From what used to call, text, give news, now it's not. Not at all. Only once a week did he give news. Just imagine, how frustrated I am waiting for news from him. On the telephone he said busy, this is again. Many reasons do you know or not ..?
Ramadan arrived, I thought it would be like Ramadan in 2011, when we were dating in the beginning, when I was still romantic with him. Apparently my guess was wrong. So wrong. he didn't even say anything to me, he never even texted me. Later at the end of the month of Ramadan I try to contact him ...
He explained why he didn't give any news lately. They say he works, sells clothes at the night market ...
Poor my girlfriend ..
After that night our relationship improved again, even more romantic than before. he comes back like when we first turned back ...
Suddenly I heard the news that he wanted to get married, I heard from his cousin, my friend from high school. I can't believe it, but after I asked him, the news turned out to be true. Yeah, I'm surprised. Disappointed, really disappointed.
He explained why he would get married and had to get married. She had impregnated the girl, and now she has given birth to a baby boy. Well, I'm sincere ... I'm a woman too, if I were in that girl's position, I would also have urged her to marry me.
But, nawir told me that he was just a marriage, not better. After marriage immediately separated. Yes, I just accept it. I accept the status, I accept the child. I let him marry that girl because I thought after marriage he would definitely come back again. But the fact that I received was beyond my reason.
On September 14, 2013 they officially became a husband and wife. Yes, I'm fine. because I thought he would come back with me here again.
The next day I contacted him, he didn't pick up my phone, he didn't get a message.
Monday morning September 17 2013 I received a text from him
"Dawn" the sms sounded
"What do you mean? What does dawn mean?
"Dawn is my son's name"
"Oh, then? Are you still with your wife now or? "
"still. I can't leave him. His parents urged me to stay with him. "
Disappointed. Very disappointed. I really hope he will come back with me. I have tried to accept him as he is, receive his status, his son, but ...
Immediately I texted him.
"Ok. Means that from now on we assume that we have never had a relationship. Suppose we never knew. Good luck with your new life .. Bye "
After sending the text, I immediately spy on my card, without waiting for a reply from him ..
I was confused at the international level at that time. Now I'm trying to move on, but can't yet. Well, I surrender everything to God ... His plan is definitely better ...
DONE