On Bottled Emotions and NFT Art

in Inner Blocks3 years ago (edited)
Hello everyone!

It's been a while since I posted something, 14 days to be exact, and I must say I was frustrated why it took too long for me to process things. The last two weeks have been very challenging for me emotionally and it was the first time in a long time that I felt something like that. I took the MBTI 16 Personalities test again after 2 years and I still got the same result - INTP-A (Logician). I'm also stoic most of the time, so having those kinds of reactions was strange for me.

For those who didn't know the context of what I've been blabbering so far, I've tweeted a lot of cringe stuff two weeks ago. Anyway, I would like to have this opportunity to share some stuff I meant to share many days ago, but it's only now that I got the chance to properly sit down and face my laptop. This post will be all over the place, so if you don't want to get stressed, I won't get offended if you skip on this one.

I've been in Hive for 4 years already. My Hiversary was on September 26 and I should have posted something about it, but it was never finished. I guess it will be in my Drafts until I decide on what to do about it. In my 4 years in this space, I've been sharing myself to the point that I felt I've been sharing too much, but so far, I have no regrets about the things that I've shared here. For those who joined after the Hive was split from Steem, you're in a much better place than we were before. And you should be thankful for that.

I've talked to a friend and during our conversation, she shared something like this: "The difference between privilege and entitlement is gratitude."

Some people are so entitled that they forget what has been fought and won before them. I'm not saying that I'm not entitled. Sometimes I can feel that I'm unconsciously being entitled based on what I say, but I'm trying to be accountable. I'm always grateful for Hive and the people I meet here.

Without revealing too many details, I would like to announce that I'm only connected to Hive PH as my local community. I've also informed my team to do the same. This means all leadership is relinquished to mommy @romeskie as the leader of Hive PH. This also means all activities are now synchronized between the north and south. Further details will be revealed in the upcoming announcements of the community leaders.

The borderless and inclusive community has been long overdue anyway. Any attempt to create another local community will just trigger exclusivity and regional thinking. Hive should be open to everyone. Once you've signed up, you should already belong to your local community. Any additional things that you should do to be part of the group are superficial.

Why am I reacting that way? Dunno.

I guess I was already triggered since August or September, but I just set it aside because of my travels. I was freediving almost every weekend and I had a major trip (Boracay) in the middle of the pandemic. I will probably share the whole ordeal soon. Because of my mantra to be always positive while on travels, I bottled those triggers and set them aside. I didn't realize those emotions would later haunt me because I didn't process them. I still have no regrets though. At least I was able to set boundaries.

If @indayclara is to be referred, she said that maybe it's all about the end of the cycle (11/11) and the start of something new. My friend also said that it's about transitions and transformations. Those are the words I embraced at the time that I was so low. Don't worry, I'm okay now. I won't let those people affect my stability anymore.

Funny thing is, when I was so down, I bought an NFT art. I just felt that NFT in Hive is about to explode. Aside from Splinterlands, Hive is a treasure trove of NFTs. Only time will tell when these NFTs will reach the masses. With Hive's fast and feeless transaction, you don't have to worry about those gas fees which I think is a very bad experience in Etherium.

While browsing in NFT Showroom, I was caught be this art:

Fragility and concreteness by @matteus57

Notes by the artist:

At the border between reality and fantasy, where what we know is no longer governed by physical laws but by our minds, there I live, there I create, there I destroy, there I sculpt my truth.

When I was at my low moment, the art seemed to have sparked something in me. I felt that I have been questioned why I was still holding on to the things I should have let go of. And that's what I'm looking for in an art piece. I felt that there's this connection so I bought it.

I have no plans of selling it in the foreseeable future because it reminded me of the time that I was overwhelmed by my own emotions.

I guess times have changed. Before, when you're down and sad, you'll probably do impulse buying on tangible things. Now, when you're overwhelmed by the world, you browse for NFT artworks.

I bought a second one because I think it's just cool to have this art:

Mew the whale by @soufianechakrouf

Notes by the artist:

Mew the whale was an artwork for acidyo the creator of OCD community on Hive. if you want to be a whale you have to control a real whale that's what i learn from OCD community.

I tweeted about this art and I think @acidyo mocks my choices, but I bought this because I want to be reminded that I should always be grateful for OCD. As someone who considers Hive as a main source of income, I would probably be devastated already if I haven't posted anything even just within 7 days. I have been with OCD for more than a year already and I can say it's my full-time work.

I guess that's all for this post. It's just a reminder for myself not to set aside any negative emotions and triggers. It's also a reminder that I should set boundaries. Another thing, NFT in Hive will be the next big thing. I mean look at Splinterlands.

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Thank you very much. Not only for buying my work... but especially for the appreciation you wrote above for it. It really warms the heart when you realize that your art reaches not only you (its creator) but other people as well. Your comment is very valuable to me and I thank you again!

😱 I never thought you would notice this post! I think I should be the one thanking you. Thank you for your art! Thank you for reaching it to me when I was down. I wanted to buy your other art, but it turned out it was already bought.

I will definitely buy more. I'll just save more HIVE.

Knowing that your art is helping people is an incredible feeling! thank you! I don't know if you liked that particular style but, if you'd like, again on my NFT showroom profile there are many other works I've done. You'll notice that there are so many different styles and subjects... but because my art has always followed step by step my every moment and my every period. and I've always liked to experiment. to range between techniques and programs always different, to challenge myself and create things that I had not yet created! Thanks again for your appreciation! I sincerely hope that my works and those of my fellow artists who publish every day can give you new emotions!

Of all your works, I liked the one you sold for 350 HIVE. If it was available, I would have bought it.

Hello @ybanezkim26! I highly appreciate you taking the time and space to share these thoughts. This is the kind of content I value the most because it evidences without a doubt that there are real persons behind the screen, with struggles, difficulties, but also with gratitude and happiness.

Sometimes along my blogging journey, I've become burnt out of sharing too much, so I can relate. That's why I decided to start writing from a new mindset, an identity crafted from scratch. Funny thing, the process began on November, 11th. The end of a cycle and the start of transitions and transformations, as you say, huh? How interesting to learn that many people could be on similar paths.

Like you, I'm also grateful for the work of the OCD community. It's truly something to be admired, the growth and the strength of it. Cheers to that! Btw, I absolutely love your taste in NFT art! I would have definitely bought them both too. Thanks again for your words, stay strong yet vulnerable and you'll find yourself a better human each day ❤️ See you soon!

This is the kind of content I value the most because it evidences without a doubt that there are real persons behind the screen, with struggles, difficulties, but also with gratitude and happiness.

This is what I like about Hive the most. Amidst all the drama, Hive is a place for real people and real connections. You just have to find the right people to interact with. As a curator, I love to see personal touch to users posts more than professional-looking or Wikipedia-type posts.

Btw, I absolutely love your taste in NFT art!

Yay! Thank you! Does this mean I have the taste for art? 😂

Thank you for your kind words! Really. I live to see comments like this in my posts.

is it an article expressing gratitude for OCD? I'm glad to find out about this post. I'm a newbie. Since joining Hive now, I have always received support from OCD, OCD members. I am very grateful for this. Thank you for your sharing, your article is also a reminder for me.
Those two works of art are so beautiful. I like the first one. Hope you have a nice weekend.

It's more of delving into NFTs, but you're right. It's also an appreciation for OCD. I would like to be reminded of how I was helped by OCD when I read this post sometime in the future.

Have a nice weekend to you, too!

Unsaon ma oy para maka apply ko as artist sa NFT Sa hive. Galibog gyud ko. mayta naay talks ani soon or naa na unya wala nako naapilan. 😅

Mayta sayo sayo ko nakahibaw aning Hive. Nawa jud kog kalit unya pagbalik nako abi nakog okay ra didto gihapon. 😢

Dili na diay. pero Im glad nga naa nako diri!

Hi @indayclara! I already tried to upload my artworks on Curate a week ago. Pero permi unsuccessful. Pero wala pa gihapon nako siya gi uninstall. Pero nalipay ko kay naa verify nako sa NFT Showroom karon lang jud. Pero naa may fee ang minting... Nindot ta sa curate kay free ra. Ni comment nasad ko ni @anneporter basin matabangan ko niya sa curate.

go for curate..

Yes! Ill try to wait kung ma-approve to akong bag-o nga gi-mint. Sa NFT Showroom naa may bayad ang minting.. unya bag o pa ko sa Hive so wala pa koy kita.

ahh sa hive na siya ang nft showroom? hehe

Yes. NFTSR is also connected with Hive just like PeakD. Fortunately, I got whitelisted already. But, still trying to save more HIVES for minting.

I see that you're already approved as a creator in NFT Showroom. Congrats! Anyway, it's not yet too late for you to start here in Hive. It's much better than the previous chain.

Yes. Im very happy I am already whitelisted in NFTSR. But I still need to same more HIVE to be able to tokenize my works. Pero, fear sad nako kay basin dili ra mahalin akong arts ba... So sayang ang hive sad.

Unya, yes, Dako jud kaau silag difference. This one is mas nindot gyud. Wala lang jud ko kahibaw ani dayon,.. pag invite sa ako nga mobalik nagblog blog, kay kato man gud. Pero, im very happy that I am here.

Don't worry too much if mahalin imong artworks or not. Put it out there. Then network. I'm sure people will eventually recognize your work.

Thank you Kim for this. Nindot kaayo kag mindset jud. Cge i'll do that. Nindot man sad jud siya i tokenize kay mura sad jud ka naay gallery ug ownership sa imong artworks.

You won't be able to sell if you won't put your work out there. Mao na ishowcase jud na. Laban lang as a person! 😂

Noted Kim. Laban lang jud ta ani as a person. Hahhaha

To me, I think you have great choices. The art is attractive. I love the first one in particular. It looks extraordinary

Yay! Thanks! I just don't look at what's attractive though. I usually look for art that speaks to me or I have connection with. I'm just glad you have found those choices great!

ka nice ang Mew the whale oyyy... pwede ma print out? 🤣

Pwede! With permission. HAHA

hahaha choy baya siya... mangita sad ko ani

I'm getting inspired to get some NFT arts after reading this post :) Probably after saving up more. Got my one punk NFT for now. Thanks for talking about it on Discord. More power to you, Kim! Support.

Hoi! I take this as a seal of approval, @jazzhero. Ano kayo ngayon @adamada, @romeskie? 😝

Glad you minted your own punk! I will probably hodl mine for year's until it will explode.

Wut? Was there a debate about punks? Haha.
Yeah, since it's attached to the Hive brand, when Hive explodes in the future, so will HivePunks. Power!

Power! Lakas makanetworking. 😂

Parang bet ko na rin tuloy bumili ng NFT arts. Matry nga yan.

It's okay to put some emotions aside muna pag mejo mahirap talaga iprocess. It's good to take your time. Mas masarap magfreediving niyan kasi feeling mo you are free of all the worries. Not that I know how it feels to freedive. Lol.

Push sa borderless, unified Hive PH! Laban as a person!

Save muna ng HIVE then bili ng NFT arts. Basta yong art ay dapat gustong-gusto mo talaga. We'll talk more about this in the next Hive Talks.

Freediving really makes you free from all the worries. May freedive na kami nakaschedule so excited na ako! 😄

Laban as the people of the Philippines!

nindota sa mew the whale.. and also the first one.. it speaks so much about brokenness and trying to be composed... anyway, i am glad you are doing well na....

Thank you Ma'am Jean! Makahappy lagi na daghan ganahan sa akong art choices. 😄

I liked your post so much, that I decided to follow you so I do not miss your future posts.

I am also a type of person that can get blindsided by emotions, and they do catch me off balance as I am a person of discipline and habit.

Thank you for your share. I look forward to learning and exploring through your words :-)

😱 Thank you so much! I hope I won't disappoint. 🙈

Long story short - just keep going!

Yes! Thank you! There's no other option but to move forward.

How cute it is to see Mew the, she is adorable and looks innocent.
Its a yes choice for me, we really ought to take care of ourselves and emotions and am glad it lighten you up. Her eyes looks so charming and melts my heart too.

Yay! Glad you liked my choice of NFTs!

I'm sorry to hear about your condition and hope you're feeling better.
Yesterday, my friend got tell me about the NFT, well, I think I should check it out.
Well picked, Kim the NFT art looks amazing and I love it :)

Oh! Thank you! I feel so much better now. Go pick your own NFT art!