I see changes in the nature and behaviour of my close one, close to my heart. After getting a clarity by @tarazkp, about sharing your personal thoughts i got some guts to share the painful journey or part of my life. The point comes here is that once someone has decided about something, you can't change it, its forever. The point of discussing about the relationship is my mother, she has a heart full of love for her brother's children and has nothing left for me. Sometimes these kinds of partially turn into the wrong step taken by the child, and even if you don't wish to do such things, the nature forces you but you can't do anything and that's what the point of struggle in my life currently.
When you have passed the age of teenager you can't change yourself, i mean that you have something fixed in your heart which is forever. My mother actually pretends to play her fake role but is not willing to do it from her heart. Noticing is the point when you realise that who is the actual snake and who is not. The bad points are enough but saying it loud don't matter to anyone. Um, the stage at which i am currently crossing, is not like more about making of decisions and living upto the life of your wish. You need a guide, a mother and a father. This relationship is the one which cannot be changed according to your convenience and your wish, if generally you have a boyfriend or a girlfriend even your life partner you can change them, but the only relationship which you cannot change are these two. That is impossible.
These two guides are the essential part of your life but is that love true? No, its not true. But leaving them is not the solution to every answer. The point is the realisation comes when you see it with yourself. Today my niece came to my house and my mother was like so polite and so helpful to him after betraing me. Yesterday, i am my mother had a an awesome verbal fight and she was like betraing me, provoking me and like abusing me, suddenly a boy came and she was like so sweet and offering her everything, that was so cold, but the only way was to tolerate but is had nothing to say. The point comes that why this partiality? Am i also wrong? Why always me? But have no answer to all these questions. Now the point comes where to go and what to do which i am not sure about. If i was alert and confident enough then this worst turn would not have occurred in my life but this is what destiny wants me to learn, about fake people, no one is yours except yourself, no one is reliable or trustworthy, no one can remain yours or love you for your life.
The point is if i would be taking about some other relationship then it would have been fine but the point is i am struggling with the relationship of my mother, who is pretending to be my mother but betraying me, doing partially with me. I would have easily gone somewhere, lived alone but the part of my life isn't supporting me and that is the main problem which i am facing right now. Read somewhere that when you are angry and overthinking you should write or draw. So today had someone guts for writing after seeing the presentable presentation of the admin @tarazkp. Everytime getting insulted and getting anxious can't be the way out. The point is i need someone to hear me to understand me but haven't have anyone. But found it good that i had an advantage to share my thoughts here on hive.
The point which i understood today was your qualification and education is the only thing which gives success and that is only way you can express yourself. You are only recognised by the wisdom you have and the money you have to spent upon. Reflections, that is the best word to express the fake world. Two faces one fake and one real sight. Sometimes i think first impression don't matter, the people you are actually being nice to you can be the real snakes but the one's who are being cold can be really good.