This is a story about journey from chaos and darkness to light. I have always lived a very chaotic lifestyle from the moment I came into this world chaos was all around me. When I was a day old my mother gave me up to her maternal parents my grandparents which little did I know would later shape my destiny. My grandparents was very loving and I had a good upbringing but I always had unanswered questions around my real mum why is she not involved in my life. As I got a little older I heard stories through the family like she's a low life she was on drugs ect now looking back I see my grandparents was protecting me but I always felt an anger deep within with just not knowing.
When I was 13 years old puburity started to kick in and so did all the hormones and with all my unanswered questions an anger rise inside of me to the point where I would go into a red mist and become very violent towards anyone around me. I don't know where it came from but at that point in my life just darkness followed. Within six months my grandad died of cancer which went undiagnosed for a long time and my nan just couldn't cope with an angry teenager who quite literally hated the world. A week after we buried my grandad I came home from school to find a social worker waiting to take me into care. Emotionally destroyed me the adults I looked to love me and protect me just gave me up my whole life chaos followed me from prison to being homeless on the streets and when I finally meet my real mother at the age of 16 she was the one who introduced me to drugs and the criminal world and I never got my unanswered questions answered but as I sit here today in my nice two bedroom flat in Plymouth UK at the age of 38 I realised that we must know chaos to know peace we must know love to know hate. I'm no longer angry I found my peace eventually and I just want to say if your experiencing a storm at the moment it will pass every storm passes. As I got older I realised the universe is pure energy if you feel anger and put out bad energy that's what you get as I learnt the hard way but then I guess I wouldn't change it as it has made me grow as a person as a soul here having an experience to grow. Italic
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Me and my mum
Me living my best life!
I am so sorry for what you experienced, but, from my point of view, you were not destined for chaos, nor did it start in chaos. Your grandparents were there for you, you were very lucky to have them, then unfortunately your grandmother could not take care of you, I understand, our grandparents get older and it is hard.
I am very glad that you have found your way and that you have a better life. I love your message, that message of strength and change. I exist for you!
thank you for your kind words what I have learnt the universe is pure vibration and frequency and when I realised this I became more aware of life so to speak.
It's a good discovery, I'm very happy about it