I understand you perfectly well Galen! I was like that at a time, finding it very difficult to ask for any kind of help from anybody until the divorce happened. I was saddled with the responsibility of solely taking care of two tender and innocent kids who by no fault of theirs, were in the line of crossfire. I thought of them, their future and how any inadequacies of theirs would be from my own inadequacies, I just swallowed my ego and accepted that I needed some help, I became 'selfish', thinking of only their benefits rather than another's. Life is so stressful and I don't think it's a bad idea, seeking for assistance, sometimes... ☺️
It's not a bad idea to ask for help, I just prefer to be as I dependent and self-reliant as I can. It keeps me sharp.