Listened to the podcast and felt called out. A little smack-smack by a cat paw, if you will. xD
I was so looking forward to this year, only to find myself kind of sleeping on myself again.. interestingly I felt profound shifts in energy yesterday and today seems like it's reflecting that back in the form of a 'shake up' to wake me from my slumber.
This might seem unrelated but it ties back in with the aspect of stepping up to one's power and for me that is to try and figure out my relation to my femininity because for decades I've been hiding from that aspect of my self, part fearing the nuclear power of it, part feeling like it's a completely unfair advantage, so I've been deliberately handicapping myself thinking I have to operate purely as a man in a man's world to be taken seriously. I feel like this is a time for proper femininity to resurge and it's not just me waking up to it. So it feels like it's also the time for a rebalancing of the feminine and masculine energies. Quite overdue if you ask me, but better later than never.. xD
Also about the narratives that we use to hold ourselves back, I felt that also in regards to that AuDHD thing. I started to feel like it was creeping up like an excuse or yet another trap. Sure it has given me a better understanding of myself and a perspective where more things have started to make sense in retrospect about my relations to studies and work and what worked for me there and what didn't, but that's all that it was needed for - reflection, I don't need to use it as another excuse to handicap myself yet again. If you know what I mean.
That part about acting as a sort of a spiritual nurse also hit home, while there are bigger fish to fry and the time to put the big girl/boy pants on is nigh.
I've said this early and often, I'll say it one more time (and don't make me go through old comments to find the exact ones, I'll do it too, you already know!) - but I'm gonna need to read that book of yours! And I'm not just saying it, I mean it! If you need some assistance to hold the energetical space to allow it to feel like it's possible and doable, I can offer to hold that energy for you to the best of my whimsical AuDHD ability.. (provided there are no squirrels around to distract me). xD
!HUG
~Josie~
Hehe. Glad I’m not the only one. 😼 Yeah, felt like there were some sorta Scorpion-bite moments in there - potent reflections posing opportunity for medicine and/or death of old self/habits overdue for it… cool you took ‘em a bit lighter with cat-paw, haha.
Re: the femininity part… sounds like you’re well on-track with the awareness. No doubt embracing that feminity would be an integral part of the “throne” experience (unless perhaps playing out the shadowy imabalanced-towards-masculine “off with their heads “ type queen).
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Re: AuDHD label as excuses… I get ya. Indeed, it seems there are many who get tempted into that trap, perhaps just part of the journey. Indeed the self-knowledge can be beneficial as a framework to refine awareness of our particular differences to help guide in navigating adjustments to how we do things to better suit our unique differences than trying to force conformity to “normal;” though there is potential for a slippery slope of focus in disempowering imposition of expectations, spells, self-images as well… just as with anything else that can be used as a scapegoat for not taking full responsibility for working maturely with whatever challenges we might face. Yada, yada, yada. you get it.
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Re: the book… you mean the Confessions one? Or was there the seed of another mentioned you have in mind?
Feeling like might need travel to so different lines to extract that. Maybe back to Thailand where it started, Bali or somewhere else with some Mercury & Mars. The Venus-AC is too damn lazy, lol…
Whichever one (or several) you end up writing. ^^
I sent 1.0 HUG on behalf of @josie2214.
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