However, spreading a little here and there in unconnected vehicles is unlikely to yield much.
I relate to this a lot. Hence, I am looking for ways not to spread myself too thin all over the multitude of stuff I wish to be able to do and master. Picking and choosing, what I dedicate more of my time and accepting the fact that I will likely not have time to cover all of it in my lifetime.
Is there a difference in your thoughts when reading an article like this, or scrolling five minutes of Instagram?
Of course, there is a difference. But reading in general has not been the easiest for me my whole life. It takes a lot of intense focusing to read and grasp. Sure, I can skim through stuff while my mind is all over my thoughts that never stop, but then I do not grasp what I read. It takes some time to gain some fluidity where what I read takes over my thoughts and makes them stop or go away further in the background.
That said, I think that this struggling could be dealt with by just training my focus a little more.
Concentration on only a couple will likely lead to fast improvement and more motivation during that time, before moving on. They say "choose the ten things you want to learn, and then cut 7 of them."
Perhaps the cause for it is because you have avoided it in the past?
Umm. Yeah. I wish it was as simple. Maybe it is. Currently it is still more like I keep 7 and drop 3 xD. But at least, I am not trying to do all of them at once and failing to do anything at all in the end.
It is probably trauma. I think I basically was made to believe I suck at it. Something like that, and I never really pushed myself to improve in that area.