Laying down on my bed is something that as become a norm lately and as even been tagged as being lazy, maybe it's true or maybe it's not even I don't know, but when I lay down, the events of the year 2024 comes rushing back to me.
It maybe due to the softness of the pillow or the warmth under the blanket, because it was then that it dawned on me how I allowed that year to be of naught. At some point I blamed it on the people and the situations around me and that became my daily mantra and it created a kind of bubble that kept me from the outside world. But deep within I knew I was at fault and I don't have the right to put the blame on anyone, as my dad once told me"when you feel like blaming the world always look at your hands because there lays your life and it depends on you how well you make use of it", and then he would tap me on the shoulders and tell me "Noble wake up".
Though it took a some time for it to sink into me, I think I'm ready to actually wake up because it's a new year and as they say "new year, new me", I know it won't be easy at all but am ready to give it a shot.
Here I am still laying on the bed but this time with a new mindset and with a new goal, I don't know how it going to happen but I have to make sure something happens and besides there is no harm in trying. At this point I may not be where I hoped to be, but I thank God I'm not where I used to be, and believe when I tell you that I'm happy of where am going to be.