Decided to stay back after the holidays with my family just to spend more time with them since we haven't been together in the same space in a while. My siblings and I are always happy together, the bond we share is stronger than most lovers have.
Things have, however, not been as rosy as we would have loved them to be; the economic situation isn't rosy, and personally, things haven't been as great as I would have wanted them to be.
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During the weekend, I realized that foodstuffs would soon finish at home, and when I spoke to my dad about it, he showed me his account balance, which was not pleasant at all. I felt so sad from within because I didn't like the reality we currently had to experience.
This reminded me painfully of the struggles I have had to go through. Knowing that I do not come from a very advantageous family setting has made me work very hard as a young lady trying my hands on different things to ensure I can meet my needs and help my family in the way I can.
There was a time when things were a little bit fair financially, and I was proud of myself. I started to provide as much as I could, and I was also able to afford the things that I wanted. But things changed again, and I guess that's life just happening.
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I was sad a few days ago, you know that feeling of complete emptiness, I indeed got to that point. I just felt probably life was probably unfair to me, and that I deserved more.
However, after some moments of pain and sadness, I had to motivate myself again to see the brighter side of things. The biggest and greatest gift is that of life, and once there is life, then we have hope.
There are so many opportunities lying around us, all we have to do is look for them and utilize them appropriately. As a person, I have never liked the 09:00 am-05:00 pm lifestyle; I would rather do business and enjoy the benefits of being a CEO (smiles).
I started working on my small business from school days and consistently grew it, then continued with it even after school but life didn't go as expected as the business crumbled after years of consistency. I tried out content creation on YouTube and when it was time for monetization, I was denied access, I also tried looking for a job but the ones I got were not as rewarding as they should, in fact they were not worth the cost of daily transportation.
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Reminiscing over all these struggles just weighed me down so much, as the first child of my family I love being there for my siblings and not being there makes me sad.
After allowing these thoughts to wallow in my mind for some time, I knew I had to shake the thoughts and terrible feelings away because it is from things like this that depression begins to build up. I made up my mind to pick up myself and begin to do more with my hive account since that's what my hands have found to do for now and just begin to build from there.
I am certain it may not be as easy as I expected, but I am sure that with consistency, everything is going to come together and look beautiful again.
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