There are times when I get bouts of depression. During those times, most of what goes through my mind is "what's the point". By this point, the best way to improve my mood is to just sleep it off. It usually resets my brain and puts it back to neutral. When I'm not depressed, the thought of dying doesn't really do much to me. I just go about my day like usual.
This is a little alarming to hear, not about the bouts of depression, more that you sleep to deal with it. Might I suggest, (only a suggestion mind you), that you try setting some goals that you can comfortably attain? It will help focus you and add something to aim at, give you a point, so to speak. You may find it starts to create momentum on which you can build.
Thanks. I'll try to do that.