I am sorry for the death of your father, I send you my sincere condolences.
Reading you has been a balm for me, you know? I needed to read this message right now. I know how hard it is to try to be self-sufficient and at the same time have that impulse to help others, the closer they are. I also know that even if you do it from the heart and without expecting anything in return, criticism or that your effort is not taken into account hurts the heart. But I also know that it is appreciated by others and that these are the ones that are really worth it. It is wise to move away from the former and stay with the latter as much as we can. A big hug, dear.
It's always hard to be selfless but just know that whatever good you're doing will have its impact to others. It doesn't have to be big, even our small kindness can change someone's entire lives and sometimes change the course of their life too.
Our conscience knows what we should do and always sees if we listen to it. We can't fool her. 😘