I go through stages at the moment, where sometimes I feel thing are going to be okay, and other times I believe that it is all going to come crashing down around me. There are many aspects to this, but I do sometimes fall into the trap of thinking that I should have a better life than I do, if I was just a little luckier.
The universe owes me nothing.
I know it. It doesn't give a shit, because it is unaware of existence, let alone my existence. It is easy for humans to put human traits onto non-human - especially concepts we can't fully comprehend, like the nature of nature. It is hard to understand that nature is timeless, that it is ever-present, and it is unaware. We talk about the "wisdom" of nature, as if it has a working memory that applies the past to the present with a future goal in mind. Yet, that is ridiculous.
So we make up a god.
I think it is hard for us to come to terms with randomness and the meaninglessness of our existence as individuals, sow e come up with ways to aggrandise ourselves, and our species. It is hard for us to see ourselves as just animals that won some kind of genetic lottery, where randomness split a gene that set off a chain-reaction of development. But knowing this doesn't help live a good life either.
Or does it?
Perhaps it does. If life is meaningless and it is what we make of it, then we don't really have anything to lose. Sure, if everything goes to shit there will be plenty of judgement from other people - but they don't matter either. And since the universe doesn't give a fuck - may as well swing for the fences.
But I find it hard to swing for the fences, because I care what happens to my wife and daughter and I care what they think of me now and in the future. And while the job requires more than being a financial provider, it does require providing some finances. And while I am doing that currently - it isn't enough.
Should I keep swinging for the fences?
It is a funny thing in society, because we really only celebrate success, not the attempt. When it works, people talk about all the energy and effort and the persistence it took to achieve the win. When it doesn't, it is just another idiot who took too many risks rather than playing it safe and providing for his family.
But if luck plays a part....
I feel like I just need to weather the storm of the current economy and situation, but it looks like it is going to be a heavy and protracted event. And I don't know if I have the resources to make it through - especially the energy. For a while now I have felt like a lot of cards aren't falling my way, and the resilience to keep bouncing back and keep on going is wearing thin.
But what choice is there?
Just keep trying.
It might not matter in the grand scheme of things, and I might drown in the storm regardless - but it might mean something for my wife and daughter, even though I may ultimately fail. If I do succeed though, I will be under no illusion.
It wasn't me.
Just dumb luck.
Taraz
[ Gen1: Hive ]
I wish I had some great advice or something else I could help you with. Unfortunately, I don't. I think a lot of people are struggling right now and uncertainty is the norm across the globe. If it helps, you will probably always have my vote here!
Yes. Many are struggling - not just me. It annoys me so much, because there really is no reason for any of us to struggle - but the world we have created is just such a mess.
Hive to the moon? :)
Man I hope so! I was actually kind of waiting on a dip below $.20 again so I could buy so me more, but I am not sure that is going to happen.
It got close. I am hoping for some more spikes for sell and buyback.
I'm trying to talk myself out of throwing more money at Splinterlands right now...
Me too.
Don't get discouraged. You were able to land a couple training contracts, it is just bad luck with company wide changes. Starting up your own business is really hard and and in this environment it is really hard time two. Once things settle down you will lend those contracts.
Yeah I feel it. I gave worked since 12, and been employed mostly full-time in some way since 16. I don't know how sone people stay unemployed for years... Drives me crazy.
I feel the same way mate. Nowadays, things are not going as I want, and this is mostly due to the lackof luck which I have generally had in my life. However, I am used to this situation thus I am lowering my expectations :)
Lower the bar too far, and then what though? :D
Seems you could just adjust your definitions of success and failure to me. You are not, by my definitions, failing in any way.
I must have missed the post about your getting a new job. Good to hear.
No new job for me. Lots of disappointing successes. I picked up training work from two companies, only for them to both announce layoffs and consulting freezes the following weeks. Pretty annoying.
The problem with redefining successes, is that it ends up just lowering the bar. Kind of like the "every kid gets an award" regardless of how incompetent they are at something.
Only if you set the bar too low. You do not.
Oh, so then I am not happy for you about the job! I didn't have to look for employment very often, but I remember clearly how it eroded my sense of self-worth. The right job will be there, the money will always be enough.
I guess if the money isn't enough, I will find a other way.
Exactly. An opportunity that an absence of money made visible.
Many accidents are not accidental. There are laws of the Universe. And I think that we have not yet studied all the laws. I can only advise one thing - more positive thoughts and good deeds every day and the future will be more successful.
I have never subscribed to the power of positive thinking - especially since most of my life I thought positively, and it got me poor outcomes :)
For me this positive mindset is mostly related to Hive price going up. 😛 I don't have much faith for the,, real world'' and I believe that crypto and Hive are the our last hope.
Kind of like Obi-Wan
But there is no such thing as luck, the result of success depends on effort, work, preparation to face falls and get up again. Whether you fail or not, the family will always be by our side.
You are mistaken. Life is random. For all the people who re successful from effort work and preparation - there are dozens who did the same thing and failed.
That life is ‘random’ has nothing to do with ‘luck’. We are not all born to have the same jobs, the same talents, the same vocation. In the world all levels must coexist, we all have something to offer, and that something is our own, and that is its own legacy, its own success.
Did you choose where you were born, your IQ, your parents, your culture, the size of your hands? Did you choose who you met, your teacher, your boss? Did you choose the government, the investments of the banks?
You seem to live in a world where you think that you control your results. You are responsible for your experience, that doesn't mean you caused the outcomes.