Today I was sitting in my friends car. She had come to pick me up, as there was a gas oven, waiting for me to collect it. When I put word out that I needed one, it wasn't too long, before I got a response. Someone had one in their garden, it had been there for a little bit, but when it got there it was working, so there was a high possibility that it still would work. I just needed to find a way to collect it. One of my dearest friends offered, so off we went.
When we got there, I soon realised that the oven was in fact, too big for my humble abode. Space is important, when you live in a tiny home, things have there place and it is hard to make more space. This oven, also had a space for the gas bottle, something I would have stored under the truck, as there is a hold in the floor, for the pipe, to fit through. I should have asked, when the person offered, but I just didn't think to ask, I was just excited that I would finally have an oven and that it was being gifted to me.
But unfortunately it was not to be. Oh how I had such wonderful plans, to use that oven, to make pies and roast veg, nut roasts and cakes. I must say, I was disappointed, so too was my friend. My friend suggested a call a man that likes to collect old broken appliances and fix them, maybe he had something.
So I gave him a call, but he didn't have an oven or a heater for me. Heating my truck is still a priority, it's just with an oven I get to use it to cook, whilst it heats up my home. It would have been the perfect solution. But not today it seems.
On the drive home, we spoke about my truck and how I wish to move from it. My desire for an upgrade. How I have now realised, that it is actually holding me back. I had always wanted a wooden Horsebox and when I first saw, I was blown away by the sheer size of it. It was everything I wanted, only on a larger scale. It took a few views, before we agreed to buy it. My girls were super excited as well, to them it was a palace.
But having a wooden home, well, it needs a lot of maintenance. Especially when you live in a hot climate, where the sun really affected the exterior. I was a lot better at treating the wood, sanding it and staining it. But that became such a chore, when I began working more. It was another huge thing I had to juggle and even though I never thought it would happen, we have outgrown it. In many ways.
For me, what I really desire, is a fresh start. Not a home that hangs heavy on me, that I have watched deteriorate more and more, because I simply can not afford the time or money it needs. It is sad, but it also holds a lot of unpleasant memories for me and my girls. Like I said, we have all outgrown it.
I am trying hard to make it happen, but first I really did have to face the fact that I have also been holding on to it. I don't want to change the way I live, only what I live in. It is all really overwhelming, trying to work out, how I will in fact make it happen, whilst also continuing to do everything else I do. When you already feel overwhelmed, such a huge change, just adds to that overwhelming feeling. But change is meant to be uncomfortable at first, it's meant to be challenging and today my friend reminded me, that I am not alone, that I do have my friends and community behind me. Something I seem to have easily forgotten of late.
( All photos are mine, taken by me today.)
Everyone needs a fresh start, a wiping of the slate maybe, and that can come in many different ways, some of them uncomfortable. I wish you all the best with the near and intermediate future and feel, with the thoughts you have and knowing you're not alone, that you'll land exactly where you need to be.
Becca 🌷
Thanks so much @becca-mac, I really appreciate your well wishes xx
Even the most beautiful homes in the world sometimes have a moving out date. Do you think you'd move somewhere static if you found the right place, like a shack or something? Having an oven and a fridge would be next level, wouldn't it? Ask the universe, as you know, and something will magically appear. xx
Yeah I'm open to that. My girls really want a bathroom, which I totally understand and I really want my own room now. I think it's time and yes I am totally manifesting a new place xxx
The only way I know to make seemingly impossible changes is to hold in my mind the clearest vision I can, notice how it makes me feel to imagine actually having it and then letting it go, coming back to the present moment completely. Then... at some point, I notice I feel an impulse to do something I haven't done before, or an opportunity comes to me that hasn't before. And over time those things lead to the vision I kept revisiting in my mind and heart.
May you have a home that makes you feel wonderful 🙏
Ah thank you @consciouscat xx
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Even owning a single detached home in the suburb has it's own issues and upkeep, there are days I feel metaphorically chained to this place and at the same time become so accustomed to it. 💚 Meanwhile, there's a world to explore.
I hear you, I still need to be in nature, would be nice for me and my girls to have a little more space and a bathroom, that would be really nice xx
I feel for your stresses and challenges, @trucklife-family, and I very much hope that the ideal opportunity appears in your vision very soon! 😁 🙏 💚 ✨ 🤙
Thank you @tydynrain, for all your support and always drop in to check on me xxx
You're so very welcome, @trucklife-family, I'm happy to do so! 😁🙏💚✨🤙
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but you and I and other 'wise' people know that change is only natural ( and the only constant in life ) ;<)
I sure am familiar with navigating change.
Yesterday's life update is yet another example of that.
Sending love from a Wintery Portugal!
Much love Vincent, and yes change, I am so ready and am so going through the uncomfortable process that is for sure xx