Today, I got to catch up with two of my closest friends. We don't live too far away from one another, but we each lead very busy lives. So we don't get to see one another as much as we would like to. Especially not the three of us together.
On top of that, I am currently house sitting, for neighbours of mine. They have an amazing property, where they grow an abundance of food. I am there to look after their animals, one dog and three cats, as well as to do some watering for them.
My youngest daughter stayed with one of her friends last night and my two eldest stayed at the truck, so I had house sat, by myself. Until my two friends visited me this morning. It was not that long ago that I told them both, how I wanted an upgrade, from my current living situation. Not quite on the scale of the property that I am house sitting, the land size for sure, but I don't need such a huge house, even with three daughters.
But, even so, here I was, getting to experience what t would be like to live, in a place that is a huge upgrade for me. This morning, I woke up, with the whole house to myself and I went and had a shower. Then I fed the animals and had some breakfast, all by myself. Finally getting some time, to be by myself. It was so nice getting to wake up, knowing that I only had to take care of myself (well besides the animals). Usually when I wake up, my head is full of what I need to do.
But this morning, the first thing I did, was for me. Having a hot shower. You know, sometimes it really is the little things that can make a difference. Getting to start my day, uninterrupted and in silence. The silence has been so nice.
Then my friends came to visit me, we sat in the garden and chatted about what we have been up to, since we last saw one another. Each of us, with our own crazy stories to tell. Each of us listening and supporting one another.
I've been struggling, lately, questioning my choices, where I am meant to be. Whether or not, the universe has been trying to tell me something, that perhaps, I am not meant to be living where I am, ultimately doubting myself, doubting the power I have to actually create the life I really want.
Now, I have another night to myself, as my two youngest daughters have extended their sleepovers and my eldest is happy to stay at the truck, with our animal companions. As I get a true taste of what it is like, to get more space, more time for myself. Realizing how important it is, that I take this time for myself, for my own well being.
Hey there, what a long and winding road it is to find out what the actual duck we're supposed to be doing in this life, ain't it? My conclusion lately has been that maybe nothing truly matters and that there's no purpose, it's just a game to be played however you want. Anyway, enjoy the space and the beautiful surroundings, wish you clarity and joy
Hey, how are you? It's been a while. Are you still travelling?
I think there are lots of things that matter, I just get overwhelmed at times, getting off balance and not knowing where I should be putting my focus. Learning all the time, that is something I am sure of. Big love to you xxxx
It's important, friend. These quiet moments. Away from the ruckus. Away from your routine responsibilities. Just a chance to reflect and give room to as yourself questions you wouldn't or would be afraid to ask on a normal circumstance. I hope you find all the peace and happiness and most of all, clarity that you need.💜🫶🏾
Thank you @jhymi , yeah I don't create space for this, not often enough anyway. I hope you are well, my friend xxxx
Funnily enough, I'm just back from spending some time with some of my bestest. Sharing time with kindred spirits and drawing upon a wealth of shared experiences is definitely good for the soul. :) X
It certainly is. Glad to hear you had an enriching day as well xxxx