I've found myself on a kind of roller coaster these last few days, surprised at how much this past week has affected me. How I can't seem to shake this feeling of exhaustion, it's grip on me, lasting all through the day. On top of that, I have been busy, working as much as I can, whatever is offered to me basically, because I have too. I just get on with it, like I always do. I'm not working particularly long days,luckily, but still I'm finding it tough.
Like today, I worked for two hours in the morning. Came home, made a smoothie for my girls, then went into town, because we were low on supplies and I got paid. I spend about an hour in town and by the time I got home, I had to lie down. Two hours later I woke up, head still heavy and still feeling tired.
Tomorrow I have a longer working day ahead of me, but I'm trying not to think too far ahead. I have a soup on and I'm going to do my best to have an early night, plus lots of Vit C. I also got myself a mushroom blend today, I ran out a few weeks back and mushrooms are such great Adaptogens, helping our bodies cope with stress, supporting the organs that are working hard to keep us healthy.
I have started to sleep a bit better at night, though, so that's good. But the exhaustion is next level really.
So I rest when I can, I'm slower, because I have to be. Focusing on each day, trying not to feel too overwhelmed. Cos I've got this, I know I have. It's just the mix of emotions that surprised me, the anger, the frustration, the stress, I get that, I expected that. But the vulnerability, how exposed I feel. Having a stranger take from me, having them take a glimpse into my life.
I guess it was not something I ever thought about.
(On a more positive note)
And now for something completely different. I have my first DJ gig in just under two weeks. A very good friend of mine, is having an art exhibition in town and she has asked me to DJ. I love music and I'm always sharing music I love, this will be my first time, so I'm a little nervous but also excited. I'm also not yet prepared. I have all the songs I want to play, i just have to get them in order and then make time to have a trial run using my friends mixer.
Yeah, maybe I have bite off more than I can chew, but I have mostly been enjoying it and if I am going to explore this new path, where better than with my friends at a celebration of sisterhood and healing. Plus I have so much music, that I have found, collected and categorized. The plan is too start of chill, with some world, tribal beats, then move onto some uplifting house, trance and then finish with some banging techno. Cos we all love to dance round these parts.
So whilst I have been resting, I have been putting together a playlist for the event. But I'm excited and that certainly helps with combating the feeling of exhaustion.
(All photos are mine, taken by me and my daughter today as we walked the land.)
The photos that accompany your article are truly charming, magnificent in capturing natural beauty.
I don't know if it's your case, but I feel overtired when I don't sleep well and these last few weeks I feel like I don't rest. Today I decided to go to bed early and try to sleep comfortably, when I do I feel great. I don't know if you take magnesium, it helps me a lot.
Much success in your first experience as a DJ in an event, when you work on something you are passionate about it doesn't feel like work.
Best regards.
Yeih, a dj gig, how exciting!
Sounds like a new path is opening up, I wish you all the best ❤️