I don't usually have this, Motherhood takes away my me-time, peace-time even at night. Sometimes I wake up at night, enjoying being alone with kids asleep, reaching to myself but not that deep.
One day, when teh kids are big enough I hope I will have teh time to do that
I hope you manage to find some time for yourself, to recharge and feel ok as you won't be much use to your kids if you have a breakdown. Good luck.