I like several of your words, but I want to say that the human being is so dissatisfied that he is never complete, perhaps because I have not had a well-paid job like the one you say you have (but you are lucky) but nevertheless it is what you have but what You don't want to anymore, does it cover your 24 hours a day? Have you not been able to gather enough to do the things you really want to do? For everything we need to do or want to do more than desire and motivation, money is needed, and if you have it, what do you expect? What you want to do reads great and comforting, you convey in your words that you need it 😉.
Life is full of twists and turns and sometimes a person takes the right one, sometimes the wrong; I think what matters is that a person keeps moving forward using the lessons they've learned from the steps they took previously.