Hi Clare,
I have a great friend who said a phrase to me today.... She is so smart... I have always admired her for that. When I told her about my writing projects and told her that doing my posts and going on adventures was good for me, she said the following: A long time ago you found that door which, it seems to me, is a journey into yourself.
And I think I will say no more. That is also what I perceive in your post.