I can understand what you're trying to express here.
Losing our hard earned money can be very frustrating, I used to cry when I lost money but not anymore. Because just like you said, it would never come back, it's gone forever. So what is the point of shedding tears. But I'll feel helplessness and that is normal I guess.
I'm so sorry you have to go through all this; doing a job you don't like could be very draining.
But I'll ask you to hang on, take care of yourself and continue giving it your best. A better job will find you soon, one that you will love.
And be more alert, so you won't lose money again.
Take care of yourself 💕
Para malos momentos como estos se necesitan palabras como estas, eres muy amable. Espero llegar al punto donde al saber que no volverá tomármelo con la mayor calma posible y no llorar como usted💚. Muchas gracias.