Short Story: The logic of feelings [ES/EN]

in Writing Club3 years ago (edited)

Jaime is a child too intelligent to be understood, to the point that because of his intelligence he has been the victim of all kinds of mockery, because that is what those who do not understand what is different usually do. As a child he understood nothing at all about feelings, in fact his logical brain forced him to ignore them, and simply focus on what made sense to him.

He spent the first years of his life this way, avoiding feelings to the point that he seemed incapable of feeling them, this seemed right for Jaime, as feelings only caused discomfort in his misunderstood self, to the point of literally making him vomit, it was the way his body managed to handle strong emotions.

This strange way of feeling, only brought him more problems, he was constantly teased, even making him vomit just for fun, and if it caused laughter to everyone, Jaime still saw it as something normal, but no, his worried mother sought medical help. After many studies and analyses, it was concluded that there was nothing wrong with his body, and that the vomiting was due to something else.

Jaime es un niño demasiado inteligente como para ser comprendido, al punto de que debido a su inteligencia ha sido víctima de toda clase de burlas, porque es lo que suelen hacer aquellos que no entienden lo que es distinto. Siendo un niño no comprendía nada en absoluto sobre los sentimientos, de hecho su cerebro lógico lo obligaba a ignorarlos, y simplemente centrarse en lo que para él sí contara con sentido.

Pasó así los primeros años de su vida, evitando los sentimientos al punto de que parecía incapaz de sentirlos, esta parecía correcto para Jaime, pues los sentimientos sólo causaban malestar en su incomprendido ser, al punto de literalmente hacerlo vomitar, fue la forma que consiguió su cuerpo de manejar las emociones fuertes.

Esta rara manera de sentir, solo le trajo más problemas, constantemente se burlaba de él, hasta hacerlo vomitar solo por diversión, y si que les causaba risa a todos, aún así Jaime lo veía como algo normal, pero no, su madre preocupada buscó ayuda médica. Después de muchos estudios y análisis, se llegó a la conclusión de que no había nada mal en su cuerpo, y que los vómitos se debían a algo más.


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And as much as his parents tried, they never managed to get the boy to know how to manage his emotions. And how to achieve it if he did not find logic in them, day after day he was frustrated to the point of not being able to think and thinking was his favorite activity in the world Jaime spent his days alone, because the other children and even adults did not want to be with him, you know what always happens when you are a different person.

Determined to solve it, his mother sought professional help, and after searching for several days she found a great psychologist who, just by seeing him, understood what was happening. She spent her life repressing her feelings and it was this that caused terrible damage inside her. But it would be a long and difficult job, to be able to work on it.

Although they did not see results, they spent years of their lives visiting that doctor, who managed to gain Jaime's trust and for his part, Jaime found in him a friend, with whom he could talk about all his passions without being judged, but who dedicated all that hour to listen to him attentively, and without showing any sign of boredom, as they all used to do.

Y por mucho que sus padres lo intentaron nunca lograron conseguir que el niño supiera manejar sus emociones Y es que como lograrlo sí en ellas no hallaba lógica día a día se frustraba al punto de no poder pensar y de todas pensar era su actividad favorita en el mundo Jaime pasaba sus días solo, pues lo demás niños e incluso adultos no querían estar con él ya sabe lo que siempre ocurre cuando eres una persona diferente.

Decidida a poder solucionarlo su madre buscó ayuda profesional, y después de buscar durante varios días consiguió a un grandioso psicólogo que al sólo verlo, comprendió lo que está ocurriendo. Pasó su vida reprimiendo sus sentimientos y fue eso lo que causó un daño terrible dentro de sí. Pero sería un trabajo tardado y difícil, poder trabajar en ello.

Aunque no veían resultados, pasaron años de su vida visitando a aquel doctor, quien logró ganarse la confianza de Jaime y por su parte, Jaime halló en el un amigo, con quien podía hablar de todas sus pasiones sin ser juzgado, sino que se dedicaba durante toda esa hora, a escucharle atentamente, y sin mostrar ninguna señal de aburrimiento, como solían hacer todos.


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One day, tired of not seeing results, Tomas' parents decided to cancel the next appointments with his psychologist friend, moving him away from the only friend he had in the world, the only person who really listened to him, this caused in him, a deep emptiness that he could not understand, and to which he did not give importance, time passed and the feeling became part of him.

On several occasions, he asked to meet again with his beloved psychologist, but his parents, in a logical way, made him understand that the doctor had not been able to do in several years what he had been paid for, and that sadly they could no longer afford to lose more money, and although Jaime insisted, he still could not convince them.

Resigned, he continued with his life without thinking more about the unpleasant and annoying emotions, instead he focused on something he was really passionate about and that made him feel at peace, obviously he dedicated himself to mathematics where he saw all the logic he needed to be happy or that was what he believed. Until she appeared, one fine day in one of his favorite classes a new girl came in, a little clumsy, making too much noise to the point of not allowing Jaime to concentrate on what he was doing.

Un día, cansados de no ver resultados, los padres de Tomás decidieron cancelar las siguientes citas con su amigo psicólogo, alejando lo de él único amigo que tenía en el mundo, la única persona que le escuchaba realmente, esto causó en el, un vacío profundo que no podía comprender, y al que tampoco le dió importancia, el tiempo pasó y el sentimiento se convirtió en parte de él.

En varias ocasiones, pidió volver a encontrarse con su tan querido psicólogo, pero sus padres, de manera lógica le hicieron comprender, que el doctor no había logrado hacer en varios años, aquello para lo que se le había estado pagando, y que tristemente ya no podrían darse el lujo de perder más dinero, y aunque Jaime insistía, de igual manera no logró convencerlos.

Resignado continuo con su vida sin pensar más en las desagradables y molestas emociones, en cambio se centro en algo que realmente le apasionaba y le hacía sentir en paz, obviamente se dedicó a las matemáticas en donde, veía toda la lógica que necesitaba para ser feliz o eso era lo que creía. Hasta que ella apareció, un buen día en una de sus clases favoritas entró una chica nueva algo torpe haciendo demasiado ruido al punto de no permitir que Jaime pudiera concentrarse en lo que estaba haciendo.


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Teresa, who was forced by her parents to take some extra classes did not want to be there, however, she loved her parents so much that she was forced to do it but she was not going to let it ruin her days, she was determined to have a good time and make friends in order to make this whole process much easier. As she walked in she concentrated on looking for a friendly face that would be the first person she could strike up a conversation with, she mistakenly thought she would get that in Jaime that she was looking for.

It only took Jaime a few minutes to make it clear to Teresa that he was not interested at all in conversing with her, much less befriending her, and with no other option Teresa had to stay for the entire class next to Jaime, who clearly did not want her to be there, however, not being able to ask anyone else for help at the moment, understanding nothing of what the teacher was saying, she had to desperately ask for Jaime's help.

After that day, noticing that Jaime was a boy genius she did not want to separate from him, as she saw in him the way out of all her problems, in fact she had already made plans on how she could pass this class and how Jaime would be the key point to make it possible. Unwillingly, being such a sentimental person, she became very fond of this new boy whom she already considered her friend.

Teresa, quién obligada por sus padres tomó algunas clases extras no quería estar ahí, sin embargo, amaba tanto a sus padres que se vio obligada a hacerlo pero no iba a permitir que eso arruinara sus días, estaba decidida a pasarlo bien y hacer amigos con el fin de que todo este proceso fuera mucho más sencillo. Al entrar se concentró en buscar una cara amigable que sería a la primera persona con la que podría entablar una conversación, erróneamente creyó conseguir en Jaime eso que buscaba.

A Jaime solo le tomó unos minutos dejarle bien en claro a Teresa, que no estaba interesado en absoluto en conversar con ella y mucho menos en hacer amistad, y sin tener otra opción Teresa tuvo que quedarse durante toda la clase al lado de Jaime, quién claramente no quería que estuviera allí, sin embargo, al no poder pedir ayuda a nadie más en estos momentos, al entender nada de lo que decía el profesor, tuvo que solicitar desesperadamente en la ayuda de Jaime.

Luego de ese día, al notar que Jaime era un chico genio no quiso separarse de él, pues vio en el la salida a todos sus problemas, de hecho ya había hecho planes sobre cómo podría pasar esta clase y como Jaime sería el punto clave para hacerlo posible. Sin quererlo al ser una persona tan sentimental llego a tomarle mucho cariño a a este nuevo chico a quién ya consideraba su amigo.


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So sometimes it was natural for her to hug him when he explained a class and she could clearly understand, this whole situation was very uncomfortable, all her life she had avoided this kind of things and now she could not find a way to get rid of Teresa, they had spent too much time together and she really did not want to lose her, she just did not know it, One day without realizing it after a long explanation, she waited for that hug that Teresa used to give her when she finished explaining, but it did not happen.

Teresa decided to stop showing her feelings towards Jaime because he had made it clear that he was only limited to explain the classes and nothing more, and that such hugs, never reciprocated made him uncomfortable in an inexplicable way, this was for Teresa something complicated, because she was very affectionate and loving, and unlike Jaime, she could not keep within herself, that sincere affection.

Teresa was a little sick, and had to miss classes for several days, Jaime could not understand what was happening to her, nor that it was more important than math classes, but what was really happening was that he missed Teresa very much, he could not avoid it, because she had become someone important to him. After a few days, he saw Teresa come in, as always, smiling and full of energy.

Así que en ocasiones le salía natural abrazarlo cuando esté le explicaba alguna clase y ella podía entender claramente, toda esta situación incomodaba mucho, toda su vida había evitado esta clase de cosas y ahora no conseguía una manera de deshacerse de Teresa, es que habían pasado demasiado tiempo juntos y en realidad no quería perderla, solo que no lo sabía, Un día sin darse cuenta luego de una larga explicación, esperó aquel abrazo qué Teresa acostumbrada a darle al terminar de explicarle, pero no ocurrió.

Teresa decidió dejar de mostrar sus sentimientos hacia Jaime porque el, le había dejado en claro que solo se limitaba a explicarle las clases y nada más, y que dichos abrazos, jamás correspondidos le incomodaban de una manera inexplicable, esto era para Teresa algo complicado, pues era muy cariñosa y amorosa, y a diferencia de Jaime, no podía guardar dentro de sí, ese cariño sincero.

Teresa, estuvo un poco enferma, y tuvo que faltar a clases durante varios días, Jaime no podía entender que le estaba ocurriendo, ni que era más importante que las clases de matemática, pero lo que en realidad sucedía, era que extrañaba mucho a Teresa, esto ya no lo podía evitar, pues se había convertido en alguien importante para el. Luego de unos días, vio entrar a Teresa, como siempre, sonriente y llena de energía.


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Without expecting it, like someone who without thinking throws himself full body into the cold sea, Jaime saw Teresa, got up from the chair and ran to her to hug her, making it very clear that he had missed her. Teresa was very surprised by what had happened, but she was also filled with joy because she knew that she had finally found a friend, and that although he was not good at showing his feelings, he did appreciate her.

We all express our emotions in a different way, and we cannot expect people to love us the way we want them to, but the way they feel like doing it, after all, being loved is a great gift they give us. On the other hand, always, with the right help from the right person, we can do things that we never imagined, that make us grow and be well.

Sin esperarlo, como quien sin pensarlo se lanza de cuerpo entero en el frío mar, Jaime vio a Teresa, se levantó de la silla y corrió hacia donde ella para abrazarla, dejándole muy claro que le había echado de menos. Teresa se sorprendió mucho de lo que había ocurrido, pero también se llenó de alegría pues supo, que finalmente había hallado un amigo, y que a pesar de que no era bueno demostrando sus sentimientos, si la apreciaba.

Todos expresamos nuestras emociones de una manera distinta, y no podemos esperar que la gente nos quiera como nosotros queremos, sino como les nace hacerlo, a fin de cuentas, que nos quieran es un gran regalo que nos hacen. Por otra parte, siempre, con la ayuda correcta de la persona correcta, podremos hacer cosas que nunca imaginamos, que nos hacen crecer y estar bien.


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I think there was a great message in the middle of the story, the main attraction of each story is that message.

I agree with your writing, they may not be ready to accept us the way we would accept others. But yes, sometimes out of imagination we get support from others. Thank you for writing well.

Una ilógica historia de amor para quienes no entienden que ser diferente no es ser anormal.

Excelente
Me gusto tu historia, llena de realismo. Estas cosas pasan mas de lo que podamos imaginar. Juzgamos y suponemos sin importar el daño que causamos.

Excellent
I liked your story, full of realism. These things happen more than we can imagine. We judge and assume regardless of the damage we cause.

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Una gran reflexión, cada persona demuestra sus sentimientos de manera diferente, debemos aprender a aceptar a los demás en su magnitud para poder comprenderlos y convivir con ellos. Fue un gusto leerte.