Hey mate, reading your article, it seems to me like you are stuck in a funk and as Azircon mentioned, we all get that sometimes. You do you and try not to worry about what people might think of your actions.
In times like this, your mind can be your worst enemy and it's good to hear you are willing to acknowledge and seek help. That's the first step and there is nothing to "fix" as you are you and interests change as we get older. It's ok to be not ok.
My brain is always my worst enemy :D
The rut has been ongoing for too long. I need to get it addressed.