Just two days ago @tengolotodo and I had this conversation. He said I was all wrung up which is true. I feel it with every step I take and with each breath. I feel like a spring and unfortunately, I haven't had the opportunity to just loose myself somewhere apart from books. Circumstances for now, won't let me. But I do dream of it and What i see is a small house or cabin in some nature filled place, with just me. I keep seeing it before I sleep each night because that is truely what I want.
Sometimes, I just want go bring those scenes in my books to life... Hehe.
I hope you manage to find some solace before you break. It's much easier to care for something so it doesn't break than fix something that is broken.
Those scenes will come to life...