If you knew me you'd not have written your opening statements, but you don't know me so you have. It's ok. I could say, it's not cool to leap to conclusions but that's pointless because I don't know who you are and what experiences you've had.
In respect of suicide, if you have been following my account for seven and a half years and read the many posts I've shared on the topic, based on real world events, my work with military veterans and the fact I've lost many mates to suicide, you'd have some more perspective but, of course, you have not and never will.
So, it's ok that you have your opinion and feel that what I did was not cool...because I know why I did it and a lifetime of history in respect of what I have personally done, and experienced; things others will never understand, yourself included.
So, whether you think something I did was cool or not is here nor there in the grand scheme of things.