You have to take care of yourself and your family first. No shame in that. There is a real problem in the medical community looking down on those with any mental issue, the last thing you need to do is let any of them find out. Ironically medicine and the military are the ones who frown upon it most, and they're the two who should embrace it.
Rebuild yourself and make your life a happy and productive one. There is always time for change and that first step you've already taken, recognition. We all have our ups and downs in life, believe me I know. I hope you can turn things around to the point that you and your family can be proud of the life you choose to live. Good luck with the remainder of residency and in your medical career. It can be very rewarding, but stay away from those mRNA vaccines, they can end your career!
Very well said, brother, and I appreciate your personal experience. Too late with the vaccines... but I only got my first 3 and stayed away after that. Cheers!
And please let me know whether you'd like to extend the MHA payments for another month. I likely won't be involved at all beyond sending out the payments.