I don't know what happened in your life but I genuinely hope you find peace of mind soon. Reading from the outside it seems that you feel really bad and that you messed up bad enough to consider ending your life at first, I've learned personally that sometimes this burden only exists in your head, not in those around you. Hopefully, in a few weeks, you'll see things more clear and lighter and life starts to smile at you again.
I refuse to believe that someone trying to spread so much joy and good vibes around Hive is a bad person. You simply tried to do too much good here. I'm not speaking about the HSBI rewards btw, that's a huge bonus for many, I'm solely speaking about trying to spread compliments, good vibes, help people struggling with their mental health.
Sometimes we know exactly what we need to do and can give fabulous advise to others, while in our own head, things are a bit more complicated and need some more time to execute the right steps.
Sending tons of good vibes your way and hopefully, you find answers to whatever it is that you need to sort in real life.
!LUV
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